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i went through kak aina's blog recently.... rasa nak nangis indah maca blog nya... n ms tok mek teringat ngan adik-adik mek... situasi mek duak kak aina ngan arwah syafiq ya sama jak cam situasi mek ngan adik mek, azrul. seriously, ada jak benda sik kenak mun mek duak kelakar. kira sik sebulu lar juak kadang2.... huhu... nya ada jak benda nak dilawan. tension juak nyawa kadang2... tp selalu ingatkan dirik, appreciate what i have before i lost it... jgn masa ya baruk nak regret all those things yg pernah dipolah dolok... tp susah la... dengan azrul yg keep on melawan, ada jak sik kenak, memberontak ya, nang susah.. mun mek duak kelaie, ma salu padah "gne kitak duak beradik tok. tok ms mak gk idup, kitak orang dah sik sebulu camtok. Mun ma dah sikda, sik tauk ma gne kitak duak tok. Betetak, berbunoh kali." bila mama padah camtok, start la masing2 diam. Ms ya mesti mek rasa nk nangis. terfikir balit. then, stat insaf. Tapi kakya, kelaie gik. Seriously, sik tauk gne nak berhadapan ngan azrul... maybe sebab jarak umur sgt jauh kali, 12 tahun bah... ya jadi camya... mun sik pun, sikap masing2 yang sik suka mengalah menyebabkan keadaan makin teruk... tp bila teringat kes arwah syafiq ya nang sendu jak rasa ati koh. tetiba terfikir, mun la kamek ilang azrul kinek tok, how can i continues my life without him, without forgiveness from him, without his laughter, without his nagging and etc... T_T seriously, i cannot live my life without him... kakak sayang kitak k o-ol.. even tho kakak salu bisin, ngerepak, kelaie ngan kitak, kakak mok kitak tauk, kakak sayang kitak... u r the most valuable n precious present i ever have for my 12th birthday, 12 years ago until now... n i love mummy, abah n nana as well.... forever... seriously... T_T n i hope this strong relationship n bond will last forever...

Oh, lelaki... sukarnya Kau Dimengerti~

11^th may :

Entah kenapa today, ringan jek jari nak sms Mr. A nk tya khabar dia lepas kes semalam tu. So I sent a sms to him asking how’s he doing. Then he reply that he was okay n that migraine is just sickness that always came to his life. I ingat nk stop right there lar. Until he ask what are actually im doing currently. So then I replied. We continues for few smsses. But then, after this one sms, he didn’t reply. N the mesej was pending. So I go online. Tak sangka dia pun online. Kita orang ada reply on a comment then he mention that dia tgh serabut. N my laptop was hang that time. So I restart my laptop n log in like usual. Then, I click on his name on FB chat.

Me : nape asyik ckp u serabut jek kebelakangan ni? Wanna share something?

A : takde apalah. Biasa2 jek. Don’t worry k. Im ok.

Lepas tu entah kenapa rasa seronok borak dengan dia. We gurau2 n talked mcm takde apa pernah berlaku. I was happy back then. Huhu… Seriously kita orang dh macam kembali macam dulu. Pastu I ada ckp kat dia, I nk belanja dia mkn.

Me : Not now la. Later-later k.

A : U nk belanja I kat mana? Okay. I orait jek.

Me : ikut u r. U nk makan kat mana?

A : Hmm, ikut I eh? Okay, Paris bole? Kat atas Eiffel tower.

Me : Habis tambang kapal terbang sapa nak bayar?

A : Bayar sendiri2 la. U belanja I makan sandwich pun dh kira ok… Okayla, Karipap la. ;)

Me : bukan ke romantic sgt makan kat Eiffel tower? Hahaha… Alah, makan karipap Ikea lagi sedap..

A : Karipap ikea telur kak L.

Me : hahah… ada jek u neh. Seriously, u nak makan kat mana?

A : Mm, tak kisahlah. I ikut jek kat mana2.

Me : Okay, t deal later aite.

Few sentences later,

Me : Lepas I belanja u makan t, I janji I tak kaco hidup u dh.

A : Apa maksud u?

Then, ada something I reply but I didn’t remember. Lepas tu,

A : Maksud u, lepas makan ngan u nanti, I kena langgar lori? N mati? Sediyh nyer.

Me : Ish, ke situ pulak u neh. Bukan la. Takde kena mengena ngan u. Apa buat ayat sedih tu??? Ish, tak suka nya.

A : lah, dh u yg ckp lepas makan tu u tak ganggu I dh.

Me : Bukan mcm tu la maksud i. its me not u.

A : ???

Me : I just rasa I kaco hidup u. so, lepas neh takde dh I kaco hidup u. jgn wiso.

A : What the heck?

Then, we keep on arguing bout that. Sampai satu tahap, dia wat lawak tuk balik kepada keadaan asal. N the story stop there. Lepas tu tetiba rasa nk tya dia bout something. (tak ingat the exact words, tp lebih kurang mcm ni la ayat nyer) :

Me : Hmm, I wanna ask u something. Tapi lau tak nak jawab pun takpe. Sj2 nk jadi busy body. Huhu.

A : Huh? Okay…

Me : Be ready.. ngeh ngeh ngeh… siap la u.

A : Jap. Give me a minute.

Me : orait. Nak prepared keyh? Hehe…

A : Ok, so wuts up?

Me : How was u doing with the baju hijau girl?

A : huh? Hid’s story?

Me : Eh, takde kaitan ngan Hid la. Ni I yang tanya. Hid tak ckp apa pun kat i.

A : Yelah. Bout what Hid ask masa kat ayam dara tu la kan?

Me : hahaha… aah. Tp bukan Hid bgtau k. I kan sponge. Main absorb jek apa orang sekeliling ckp. Hehe…

A : ermm, entah. Okay kot.

Me : okay. Great than.

A : Okay, apa u nak tau pasal dia?

At the same time, I type :

Me : positive response eh?

A : I tatau apa nk cerita. U nak tau apa? U nk tya apa?

Me : Takde apala. I just nak tau, how did both of u go? Well?

A : entah nk ckp macam mana..

Me : so, positive response la neh?

A : hmm… ye kot. Okay, dia sambung master kat sini.

Me : owh, k.

A : tapi kat Shah Alam…

Me : alah, bukan jauh pun Shah Alam tu. Kalau kata u rindu, u trn jek Shah Alam. Bukan susah sgt.

A : rindu? Hahaha.. kalau iyer pun, I g jek seksyen 7.

Me : Owh, rumah dia? Huhu.. ye tak ye jugak.. heheh…

A : tak pun, I g jek penang, dia asal sana.

Me : owh, okay. :) (lepas tu diam jap, then…)

Me : great than. :) okay, im done. Heheh… sj2 jadi busy body… ;p

A : Is that all?

Me : hahaha.. yelah…

A : R u sure? Is that all? Tu jek?

Me : Takde question dh. Kan kata, sj2 nk jadi busy body. So kehabisan soalan dh. Heheh..

A : Betul ni?

Me : iyer..

A : okay, now its ur turn.

Me : erk? What? U have questions for me ke?

A : u ready?

Me : u freaking me out la A. Huhu.. okay, so what’s the quest?

A : u ready ke tak?

Me : Iyer. Now im seriously freaking out by u. Mcm nak bunuh orang jek gayanya. So?

A : So, wuts up with zuru hirumi?

Me : hahahha.. what??? Zuru hirumi??? Adoila…

A : What is your relationship with him?

Me : Okay2. me n him, friend. That’s all.

A : seriously?

Me : yes. Y?

A : bila nak ubah relationship tu jadi lebih daripada tu?

Me : hahahah… y u ask me that quest?

A : kenapa tak nak beri dia peluang?

Me : hahaha.. rasa nak gelak guling2 la A. common.

A : nape u tak nak beri peluang kat dia?

Me : okay, ive given a chance to him before n yet he couple ngan orang lain. N now let destiny be the judges. Whether I should give him another chances or not. N furthermore, I berharap kat orang lain kot.

A : Okay. So that was all ur post about?

Me : What post?

A : I don’t remember. Something bout stacy’s songs and aizat ke ntah sapa ntah.

Me : hahaha…. Both the songs keep on spinning in the radio everytime I switch on the radio. Tak kisah la channel apapun. Mesti ada kuar lagu tu. N part of the lyrics mcm ceritakan apa yg I rasa that time.

A : bout zuru?

Me : hahaha… no lah. It’s not bout him. Its about orang yg I berharap tu. Entahlah A. susah nak detect perasaan lelaki neh. Kejap dia mcm ni, the other time, dia mcm lain pulak. Entahla.

Then we continue borak2 a little bit more before dia terpaksa minta diri coz kedai mamak tu dh nk tutup… huhu… actually, I don’t know if that is even true or he just want to avoid to continue ckp pasal neh. Sebab lepas dia log out, I post something. Then esoknya, bila I bukak fb, he posted something on his wall few minutes after I post mine. Mls dh nk fikir. Dia kan mmg macam tu. Suka ngelak bila libatkan hati n perasaan. Huhu… sebenarnya, byk nk tya pasal baju hijau tu. Okay, kita backward jap… heheh…

Actually, ms I study tuk my last paper kat fac (somewhere on 4^th or 5^th may – I cant remember), satu ketika neh, Hid turun jmpa I kat level 4. pahtu, dia naik balik kat level 8. nak dijadikan cerita, I tatau nak jawab satu soklan neh. Bila tya member2 lain kat level 4 tu dia orang mmg tatau nk jawab n ada yg tgh busy ngan kerja masing2. so I nek atas nk jmpa Hid, tya sal quest tu. Nak dijadikan cerita, I tatau Hid n the geng study kat mana. So, tercari2. Ms dok melilau-lilau carik Hid, dengar ada orang gelak. N gelak tu sgt familiar. Tp bila tgk ada sorang lelaki n sorang perempuan, I tak expect tu Mr. A. dia pun mcm tak nampak jek I masa tu. I terus cari n bila I yakin yang gelak tu Mr. A, I dtg kat situ. Ms tu ada sorang minah pakai baju hijau dok borak ngan mr. A. I terus carik Hid n nampak Hid tgh study sebelah Y. So I duduk n terus tanya soalan. Hid asyik jeling jek kat Mr. A n si baju hijau tu. Tatau Hid kurang selesa sebab dia orang gelak sakan sampai Hid rsa terganggu nak study ke or Hid jelling sebab lain. I tatau. So I teruskan jugak tanya Hid. Dh sudah, I blah. Lepas study, I ngan Ida lapar. So kita orang decide nk g makan ayam dara. Ms tgh tgu order, Hush call i. Dia tya masuk fac lagi ke tak. Then, I kata tak. Dia nak jmpa sebab nak fotostate something. I ajak la Hush mkn skali ngan kita orang. Tapi Hush tak kata apa. So I assume he didn’t want to. So tak kisah lah.

Tengah2 borak ngan Ida, tetiba ada orang mintak sedekah. Suara macam familiar habis. Kita orang toleh nampak Hush ngan Hid kat belakang. Dia orang gelak2. Pahtu dia orang duduk n order.

Hush : Ko dah mesej A ke Hid? (ms ni Hush tgk i)

Hid : dh2. Dia orang otw.

Hush : Ko ckp tak makan kat sini?

Hid : dh la. Kan aku kata, dia orang otw.

Hush sengih..

Hush : kejap lagi dia dtg ye mim…

Me just angkat kening tanda tak fhm… but then, Hush senyum jek.

Tak lama lepas tu, A n Y dtg. Kita orang gabung meja. Hid kat kepala meja. Sebelah kanan dia ida. Sebelah ida me. Berdepan ngan ida, Hush n sebelah dia Y amik tempat. Ms ni, A dh tarik kerusi duduk sebelah i. Ms tu mmg terkejut gila babas. Di boleh jek duduk dekat kepala meja yang satu lagi. Pahtu, Hush dah sengih2 n I mula pandang Y. Takut Y fikir bukan2 pulak. Then, I sengaja angkat mangkuk bihun tomyam kat meja tu supaya dia tak duduk situ. Then dia ter ‘realize’ something…

A : eh, sorry2. U duduk la sini. I duduk sana.

Me : great!

A : (sengih)

Hush : (senyum)

Pahtu kita orang borak2. ms neh elok pulak si Y tu ckp ngan i. ms ni la start dia mula tegur I mcm biasa. I pun tak fhm. So, tegur je la balik. Huhu… then, terbukak la hikayat si baju hijau neh.

Hid : A, ko tak share ngan aku pun psl dia.

A : Dia? Dia siapa?
Hid : Ceh, pura2 tatau. Nyampah aku. Alah, dia lah. Ni kisah ms diploma eh?

A : Lah, sapa ni?

Y : hahahah… cuba ko ckp baju hijau Hid. Sure dia tau nyer.

A : baju hijau?

Y : Ish, baju hijau tadi la. (kata Y sambil gelak) (this time, si A toleh kat sisi)

Y : Hahaha… Kantoi!!!! Aku sebut jek si baju hijau, dia dh senyum dh…

A : Siapa senyum?

Hid : hahaha… toksah la ko nak temberang A. Aku pun nampak tadi. Cerita la A.

A : Mana ada apa2 la. Apa korang neh?

(ms ni me n ida diam jek. Yelah, ida tatau hujung pangkal… I tau la sikit2 cerita pasal sapa sebab ternampak incident tu kat fac.. hehe)

Hid : toksah ko nak menipu A. Cerita la ceritala. Sampai hati kau berahsia ngan aku.
A : apa ni? Ish, korang ni la…

Y : Dia dh tahan senyum tu.. hahaha…

Hid : Ko tak nak cerita, aku korek dari Wan. Siapla.

A : eh, apa ni?

Y : hahaha.. lucu la muka ko weh. Cuba thn senyum tu… Hehehe….

Dia orang terus cerita2 pasal si baju hijau tu. Me n ida diam jek. Nak menyampuk tatau cerita sebenar pulak. Huhu… ms ni mmg serius tak rasa apa (maksud I pasal A ngan baju hijau tu la.) tak de rasa pain, takde rasa cemburu, takde rasa kecewa, it just takde rasa apa2. mmg okay habis. Tp entah nape bila tya sendiri ngan Mr. A sal baju hijau tu, the pain was there. Rasa betul2 dipermainkan pun ada. Mcm2 rsa sebenarnya. Tp satu je takde, rasa cemburu. Itu I mmg pasti. Entah nape lepas I chat ngan mr. A tu pasal baju hijau, I rasa cam tak okay. Rasa cam nak… tatau nak describe macam mana… tp apapun lepas tu, I doakan Mr. A bahagia jek. Kan orang kata, kalau kita sukakan seseorang, tp dia menyukai orang lain, kita doa kan je dia bahagia kerana kita akan rasa bahagia bila tgk orang lain bahagia. Huhu… K back tu present… hahaha

N I was really shocked when he asked about that Zuru Hirumi. Masalahnya, I ngan zuru hirumi mmg takde apa2. kawan jek. Mmg la currently, selalu jugak si zuru hirumi tu like my post or comment about my post. Tapi tu tak membawa maksud apa2 kan? Nape dia boleh fikir yang I ngan zuru hirumi tu ada apa2??? Kalau takat reply comment satu sama lain, I rasa lagi byk I comment kat page dia kot… hahhaa… aduila, lelaki.. mengapa sukarnya kau dimengerti?? Hahaha.. tp seriously, mmg tak fhm kenapa boleh timbul soalan pasal si zuru hirumi tu. Mcm yg ida ckp: he might look don’t care but actually he did care. Dia sebenarnya amik tau pasal apa u post kat fb n he did realize bout tiffany tu. He just don’t show it. Maybe he felt something when tgk zuru hirumi tu kerap reply n like ur comments… n that’s y he ask u about that… tataula.. itu kata ida.. I tatau nk ckp apa… yg pastinya, dia semakin sukar difahami… huhu….

Da Love's Code Breaker - Pengharapan, Diharapkan, Mengharapkan

_LUAHAN CINTA DALAM PUZZLE_

We have our finishing schools program today. It was a great one becoz on this program, I’ve learn a lot of things about future world (working time) and also how the interviews are done… From this program, I get to know that are the questions that are being asked by interviewer during interview session n how can I answer all those questions. Besides that, I learn how to write a powerful cover letter and etc. Never had a great time attending UiTM’s programs before and this is the first time.. hehhe….

Nak dijadikan cerita, adalah al kisah terjadi hari ni… heheh… my grup (under miss Z) need to fill in a sheet of word puzzle… kalau before ni, I yg gila main word puzzle neh, that day, I pulak nak kena create the puzzle. So, miss Z suruh buat pasal buah ke, Negara ke, or binatang… n I choose to create a word puzzle about fruits. We have to submit it lepas siap to miss Z. n I tak sangka she will distribute it to the grup members. Contohnya, yg I punya akan di pass ke orang lain n I’ll get other people’s puzzle. Macam tu la.

Nak dijadikan cerita lagi, I’ve got this one puzzle from a girl. (Nama dirahsiakan… :)) dia wat sal animals. Ms tgh bosan2, I pun plan nak carik animals tu. Tapi lain pulak I jumpa. I tot of looking for an elephant, instead I found a name! Hahahah… ms terjumpa nama tu sgt2 terkejut bangat. Hahah… it was my classmate’s name. to be more specific, it was my geng’s name. (one of K.A.M.I.’s member), Alfi. I was shocked to death bila dpt nama tu. N when looking to the author, I realize something. Huhu. N worse of all, this girl did ‘luahkan perasaannya’ dlm that word puzzle. Cam haram!!~ hahah.. seriously, I think this girl really like Alfi from the way she created the puzzle. Ada jugak yang tak directly express but ‘orang bijak’ macam I can detect it easily… hahha… seriously, this girl is sooo in love with Alfi. I show what I found to 2 of the members of our geng that is in my group, Amri n Fahmi n they were shocked to death as well. Huhu…

During our tea time, I came out from the class. While waiting for my turn to be interviewed, I ate the roti jala given by the faculty n kembali memecahkan kod Da Vinci girl itu… heheh… takde kerja kan. A few minutes later, the other geng kuar dari kelas. (Ida, Mr. A, Hid and Hush). Then, Amri show them what I found about that puzzle and the four of them give the same expression like what me, Amri n Fahmi did before.. Heheh… Hid take that piece of paper and start to pecahkan kod Da Vinci itu as what I did. A, n Hid ckp : Ni mesti Alfi punya pasal ni. Bagi harapan kat budak ni. Sebab tu jadi macam ni. Macam aku tak kenal mamat tu.

Sementara tunggu Alfi n the rest of the geng (Ajmi and miss Y) to get out from their class, we discuss bout that matter. Then, I went for my interview session and when I came out, Alfi n the rest still not came out from their class. Tak berapa lama kemudian, Y dtg dekat dengan kita orang. Ms tu Alfi dh turun guna lif kat block 2. I shout his name, but he never realize it. So, me n Fahmi call him and asked him to get back to our level. Masa ni Hid n Hush dah balik. And, Mr. A gave Y that puzzle paper n asked her to detect what is wrong with that puzzle. But Y never realize bout it. So, we show her the name. By that time,

Y : Aku dah agak dh. Dia orang ni ada pape. Tak pun, si Alfi tu bagi harapan kat budak ni. Kan tak pasal2…

Me : Dia siap ckp dia sgp mati kalau tak dapat Alfi weh. Tak ke gilo namanya?

Y : Aku dh kata dari awal lagi kat mamat neh. Jangan bagi harapan suka hati. Kan dah berharap lebih2 orang tu.

Then, Y n A ceritalah apa selalu terjadi kalau dia orang lepak2. (Yelah. Kita orang ni – Me, Ajmi, Fahmi n Ida… tatau pape… sebab dh lama tak lepak ngan dia orang… yalah, sejak Y lancarkan perang dulu, mmg lepak asing2 dh.. huhu..). Masa dia orang cerita tu, I dh agak dh. Ni mesti mamat Alfi ni ckp something or give hopes towards this girl. Mmg dh kenal perangai dia mcm mana. Maybe he’s not intend to do so, tp cara dia boleh buat orang berharap. Seriously. Then, si Alfi neh muncul la kat kita orang. Then I terus pass him that puzzle n wait for his comment. But he didn’t detect any. So I show him what I found n read the first few sentence that I’ve already broke the code.

Alfi gelak jek ms tu. N this is when all the three women hit him back for what he had done. Ms tu mmg sgt2 geram dekat dia. I can feel what that girl feel.. Rasa dipermainkan. Serious, kalau hilang pertimbangan masa tu, mmg aku bagi jugak si Alfi tu satu tamparan wanita, bagi dia sedar sikit yang hati perempuan bukan untuk dipermainkan. N this time, tetiba pulakkan, miss Y n me bersatu hati marahkan Alfi n the rest of the guys. Mcm tak pernah perang jek before neh. Hahaha… gilo!! Kuasa Wanita… :)

And me, entah nape mmg emotional few days back, jadi makin emotional bila berlaku hal camtu. Sebab dh terkena kat batang hidung sendiri, so mmg berada on that girl’s side this time eventho tak suka sgt kat dia. Seriously, im getting very emotional bila libatkan perasaan perempuan dipermainkan ni. And this one part, I mmg hentam si Alfi tu habis-habisan. Mmg over emotional la ms tu. Then, tetiba :

Y : eh, mim! Emosi lebih2 kenapa? Macam marah benar. Pernah kena ke?

Me : (terdiam for a while). Eh? Bukan marah. Tapi cuba menasihati. Sakit weh kena permain. And you Alfi, you shouldn’t have done that towards girl. Kesian dia keh.

Y : eh, ckp berdasarkan pengalaman ke?

Me : (terdiam).

Y : rilek ar mim. Jgn marah2. Heheh…

Me : mau tak ngamok. Dia orang ni buat perempuan mcm apa jek. Suka suki bagi harapan kat orang, tp harapan tu takde pun.

Y pulak yang terdiam. Huhu.. Ms ni Mr. A kat meja sebelah.

Lepas tu mmg Alfi teruk ar kena ngan me, Y n Ida. Even the guys pun ada hentam dia. This time around, tiba2 Mr. A duduk meja yang sama. Ms tu I tgh nasihatkan Alfi jangan buat benda yang sama lagi kat orang lain. Kesian kat girl yang kena tu. Dia diberi harapan tinggi, tapi sebenarnya bg lelaki, harapan tu langsung takde. Mmg mulut macam bertih jagung jek nasihatkan Alfi time tu. Dlm dok sibuk nasihatkan Alfi tu,

Y : A, u nape?

A : (geleng kepala)

Y : migraine datang lagi ke?

A : (angguk)

Y : sampai migraine?

Pahtu budak2 ni terus sahaja bercakap pasal Alfi and the puzzle girl. And me pun sama.

Me : Seriously, Alfi. I think this girl is really falling for you n she really likes you. Bayangkan, dlm buat benda bodoh macam puzzle ni pun dia leh ingat kat hang. Dasyat sgt.

Alfi : Hahaha… takde kot. Kebetulan je kot.

Me : Banyakla hang punya kebetulan. Mim mmg rasa dia sgt2 sukakan Alfi. Mim perempuan, so mim tau lah.

Alfi : Kenapa perempuan suka buat macam ni?

Me : Bukan suka kot. Maybe dia ingat benda ni takkan diserahkan kat student lain kot. N dia ingat Da Vinci’s code tu takde orang bleh brake it. Tp dia mmg sgt2 sukakan Alfi k. Mim fhm perasaan dia.

Alfi : Kalau mim, mim luahkan macam ni ke?

Y : aah lah. Cuba carik puzzle mim. Kot2 jumpa nama….

Me : Mim tak sebodoh tu nak express mim nyer feeling inside kat dalam puzzle. Sebab mim tau puzzle tu akan diberi kepada orang lain lepas tu. Mim fikirkan sal orang tu, tp mim tak letakkan nama dia dlm satu code yg senang untuk dipecahkan.

Y : Maknanya, ada la nama lelaki yang mim suka dlm puzzle mim?

Me : (diam).

Then, kita orang terus borak2. and ada satu part neh,

Alfi : tak sangka pulak eh. Mcm mana korang boleh detect ni. Mana yg direct tu boleh ar. Yg tersirat tu macam mana pulak?

Y : hahhaha… mim yang brake the code. Ask her…

Me : Masalahnya, aku nak carik elephant. Terjumpa benda lain. Nak cari binatang lain pun tak boleh sebab keep on jumpa benda2 yg tak sepatutnya. Im the Da Vinci’s code breaker… hahha..

Alfi : tapi, aku mcm tak sangka. Masalahnya, jarak antara 20 april ngan 10 mei tu dekat jek. Macam mana dia boleh suka kat aku?

Y : Alfi, jatuh cinta ni dlm sehari pun boleh. Tak semestinya dlm tmph ms yg lama.

Me : Betul2. kalau kata nk fall for some one tu. Dlm a minute pun boleh. Jatuh cinta ni tak kenal masa, siapa la Alfi. Kalau kata dia nak jadi, jadila. Bukan boleh mintak nak fall dlm berapa lama.

Y : betol betol betol. Macam mim….

Me : Ait, apa pulak aku jadi mangsa keadaan ne? (this time, Y gelak)

Alfi : Hang fall for whom mim? Bapa lama?

Me : Hello, bukan mim topic skrg keyh. Apa Y neh.

Y : hehehe… hang nak tau Alfi? Carik puzzle mim. Dia kata dia letak nama orang dia suka.

Me : hahaha… carik ar sampai dpt. Mslhnya, korang takkan jumpa nama tu. Coz, my code was toughest ever. Hahah..

Alfi : khabaq mai la sapa mim.

Me : hey, this is not about me la. Its about u playing with a girl’s heart n feeling.

Y : (gelak)

Alfi : jgn lagu tu mim. Mana ada Alfi mainkan perasaan dia.

Then, this session berterusan. Mr. A keep on silent dari start dia duduk di meja yang sama tanpa masuk campur.

Y : Alfi, meh ar balik. A pening kepala la.

Pahtu I pulak menggeripai sendiri. Aku ke wat dia migraine? Huhu…

Y : balik ar jom?

A : Takpe. boleh thn lagi neh.

Y : takpela. Jom, balik. Kesian kat u.

Then, kita orang pun gerak pulang. Ms kat dlm lif, mmg Alfi kena buat kali terakhir n I tgk muka A. Dia mcm tgh tanggung sakit yang teramat. Even if I yang sakit kepala biasa2 ni pun boleh menggeripai. Ni pulak migraine. Ditambah lagi mulut I bebel macam bertih jagung, mmg lagi teruk ar jadinya. So I shut my mouth. Huhu… kesian kat dia. Then, dia hantar Y n Alfi balik. And me, Ida, Ajmi n Fahmi pulak singgah PAS, karokeing… :)

Sementara tunggu Ajmi and Fahmi, I borak2 ngan Ida.

Me : Babe, I rasa bersalah.

Ida : Huh? Bersalah? Sebab?

Me : Tadi, I was over emotional eh?

Ida : Maksudnya?

Me : I dok terfikir-fikir dari tadi. Pasal apa Y ckp.

Ida : Apa Y cakap?

Me : Ms I dok bebel n hentam Alfi n Ajmi tadi sal permainkan perasaan tu, dia ckp “eh, mim! Emosi lebih2 kenapa? Macam marah benar. Pernah kena ke?”

Ida : Owh, yang tu. I ada dengar.

Me : Tu la. I ni over eh? Lepas tu kan I ckp, bukan marah. Bagi nasihat jek.

Ida : huhu… Actually, masa mim ckp tu, Ida terperasan jugak. Mim mcm emosi sgt2. Mcm kena kat batang hidung sendiri. Mcm marah sgt2. Then, I tgk A. mamat tu macam tak berperasaan jek. Macam takde apa2. Siap pandang tempat lain lagi.

Me : Ye ke? Dia terasa ke agak2?

Ida : Entah. Susah nak detect.

Pahtu kami borak2 pasal tu n I luahkan rasa bersalah i. Ida kata, dia tak sure yg A terasa ke tak. Pahtu I drop the subject. Lepas tu mmg takde mood nak karok pun. Rasa nak nyanyi lagu2 rock yg menjerit2. tp takde lagu yg best. Huhu…

Apapun, moral of the story is jgn mudah percaya dengan harapan yang lelaki bagi. Sesungguhnya tak semua harapan itu wujud. Huhu.. seriously, bila baca luahan hati girl puzzle tu, I mmg rasa sakit nya apa dia rasa. Bukan sekali I pernah rasa benda ni. Byk kali. Byk kali jugak I tersungkur jatuh atas harapan yng orang bagi dekat i. Dia orang anggap perempuan ni mcm permainan ke? Macam puzzle? Hello, a woman juga ada hati dan perasaan k. Hati dan perasaan perempuan bukan untuk dipermainkan. Kalau kata takde harapan dari mula, tolong jangan bagi harapan sebab yang rasa n tanggung sakitnya adalah perempuan. N lelaki, seronok jek lepas bagi harapan kat a girl then, permainkan dia. Harap2 lelaki di luar sana, bukakan mata, bukakan minda. Treat people the way u want to be treated. I percaya hidup ini ada timbal baliknya. Sekarang u buat kat perempuan tu, nanti u akan rasa sakitnya or lagi sakit dari apa yang perempuan tu rasa. Msa tu jangan slhkan siapa2 kerana u sendiri started all that. Renung2kan, dan selamat beramal… :)

It's Princess Birthday~ :)

It’s princess birthday… she was born 24 years ago… heheh… Happy birthday to me myself… n would like to thanks people who celebrate it with me yesterday : Zelma n Zuraida. N me also would like to thanks for those wishes, prayers, present, n so on so on… really appreciate all that.. THANKS PEEPS… :) :) :)

As u noe, when people celebrated his/her birthday, they have their own wish… as for this year, I have a lot of wishes that I hope will come true… but I just stated THREE wishes that I think are most important wishes… :D

First, I would like to wish that Tunku Nashril (a guy that I used to have a crush on during my Diploma days… ;)) will know my birthday n wish me on my facebook… huhu… Whereby, I don’t think this wish will ever came true… huhu..

Second, I would love if I can get a little bit taller (average of Asian woman). Huhuhu… seriously, if there is any chances to do that, I will surely do it… I don’t want to be to tall.. it just enough if I can get an average Asian height… huhu…

Third, I wish that my breast are a little bigger than what I have now… Just like any other woman have.. haha… not to big… just little bigger like average woman have.. huhu… coz I think, mine’s was to small compared to other girls n women… huhu…

Bukan tak bersyukur dgn apa yg ada… just that I hope I can be a normal person… with normal life… huhu… tp, kalau takde peluang, then takpe… tetap gembira dengan apa yang ada… :) apapun, its just wishes… kalau tak dapat ditunaikan, sentiasa terima ngan redha… :) hope u guys tak gelak bila baca wishes I neh.. huhu…

Thanks Allah for the life that u gave, the happiness, the bond, the loves, the ‘Berkats’, the everything u gave to me for this 24 years n future… Thank You Allah.. n Alhamdulillah, I still have the chances to breath di bumi-Mu dan masih diberi masa untuk menambah segala amalanku… Semoga apa yang aku lakukan di dunia, akan mendapat keredhaan-Mu Ya Allah. Tunjukkan aku jalan yang lurus dan benar. Dan bimbinglah aku, hambaMU yang lemah ini Ya Allah. Jangan putuskan rahmat-MU dan kasih sayang Mu pada ku… Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang… :)

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman =)

Selamat berhari Jumaat… :) sebenarnya, ada banyak benda saya nak share kat post hari ni…. So, be ready to give me sometime and get through all the agenda that I try to share… njoy… =)

1)MY 1ST PAPER : yesterday was my 1st paper of my final semester… huhu… Business for Engineers…. Actually, when studying for this subject, I kept asking myself why would I as a future engineer need to study this subject??? But then, I realize it was a great subject for those who don’t want to ‘makan gaji’ and try to build up their own empire in engineering world… :) actually, we’ve got hints from friends of the same batch… but, I never trusted it since I’ve been fooled before by those hints given… they say this one is not going to be out in the exam n this topic can be ignored n so on so on is actually coming out in the exams... so, I decided not to trust so much about the hints n all the stuff.. huhu… same goes for this subject… when they spread the hints, I don’t trust it 100%... and it was pretty obvious that the hints given are not true… huhu.. luckily I didn’t trust that hints… if I do, surely im gonna extend my semester instead of finishing it… huhu… sebenarnya, ms jawab paper tu mmg main goreng je… tatau la goreng tu cukup2 masak ke, telebih goreng ke, hangit ke… huhu.. nak tau macam mana rasa gorengnya, tunggu result keluar nanti… main bantai tibai je jawab semalam… apa yang tatau pun, buat2 tau jugak.. huhuhu….

2)CHOCOMINT, MC DONALD, LEPAKING N KICK-ASS : Actually, kawan saya mintak teman semalam pergi minum Chocomint dekat Jco Doughnuts n Coffee… Dia mintak teman lepas habis paper…. Tp kena postponed a little bit late sebab dia kena ambik adik dia dulu…. So, lepas habis paper, kita orang pergi makan (geng K.A.M.I), lepas tu saya lepak di rumah dia, then lepas amik adik dia, kita orang pergi Sunway Pyramid n have that ChocoMint. Nak dijadikan cerita, kita orang ajak member lain pergi sama. Plan asal nak lepak kat Jco tu kejap, lepas tu nak balik sambung study… Sekalinya, kami tengok wayang la pulak… (3 guys n 3 girls). Mula2 tatau nak tgk muvi apa. Iron man 2 ke, kick-ass ke, loser ke… tp, last2 decide to watch kick-ass…. Mmg berbaloi2…. Heheh… puas hati sgt2 ngan action2 budak tu… sgt2 puas hati… hehhe… eventho ada member sampai tertido2 kat mc d, sementara nk tgu wayang (yelah, kelaziman students yang ada paper, dia orang akan tak cukup tidur or tak tidur langsung sebelum paper), but still we njoy n have a great moment…. (gaya duduk lepak tu macam dh habis semua paper jek.. hahaha…) tp, apapun mmg sgt2 puas hati dengan cerita kick-ass tu… tak sangka, an 11th year old kid can do that action… huhu… for those yg blm tgk, g la tgk… seriously, I recommend this movie… a should watch movie… :) two tumbs up n 5 star!!!~

3)MR. A (this part will be quite long, tp kalau tak nak baca, takpe.. *smile*) : kisah bermula… ceh… actually, dh lama tak sembang dengan Mr. A. sejak balik dari perak dulu, lepas his bestie melancarkan perang ke atas saya and the start of buzyness for our FYP’s, IDP’s and etc etc…. Mmg takde pun mesej Mr. A or what so ever… Kalau cakap pun, dia tya satu soalan, saya jawab soalan dia then that’s it. Takde lagi dah sembang n gurau2 macam dulu…. Even masa duduk sebelah-sebelah masa presentation FYP dulu pun, satu tya, satu jawab. Dia tya, saya jawab, saya tanya, dia jawab. Itu pun boleh dikira berapa jek soalan antara kami… soalan tu pun pasal orang yang tengah present or pasal FYP. Nothing personal…. Huhu… So, nak dijadikan cerita lagi, tiffany (a gift from mr. A) dh selamat sy masukkan dalam beg dia bagi dulu tu sbb tak nak sakitkan diri sendiri bila tgk benda tu. Huhu… entah hari tu, kenapa rasa mcm nk tgk tiffany… tp tak mampu nak bukak beg tu sebab kat dalam tu masih ada kotak coklat yang dia bagi and our “sticker cinta”… huhu… so, saya g la tengok gambar tiffany je… n I decide to post that pic in my facebook account. Bukan niat untuk membuat dia serba salah or buat orang lain terasa ke apa…. Niat di hati hanya untuk unkapkan rasa terima kasih sebab pernah beri memori indah itu dulu. Itu sahaja. Takde niat lain. N saya sgt2 berharap that he would recognize gambar tu n leave some comment. But then, dia online siang n malam 29th tu… tatau dia online kat mana… maybe mamak or his friends’ house.. dia comment my friend’s page n I did the same… actually dia dh leave comment for quite few times… tp bila saya comment, dia start tak balas apa2 dh. Dekat page member lain pun sama. Bila saya start comment, dia diam. Eventho there’s a question for him… huhu… dasyat2 tak dasyat nyer dia nak jauhkan diri… huhu… n he didn’t even realize bout pic tiffany tu pun… huhu… (tatau ar mmg tak realize ke or sengaja buat2 tak nampak).

So, masa paper semalam, my friend, Ida dh reserve tempat. Ms I nak duduk, Mr. A dtg ke tempat yang sama.. so, Ida asked him to sit in front of her n I’m going to sit beside her. Lepas tu, his bestie ni panggil dia suruh duduk dekat dengan dia. Yang peliknya dia tak mahu pulak duduk dekat bestie dia tu. Dia duduk jugak depan Ida which is a row in front of me n ida. Dia ckp kat bestie dia tu, suruh reserve untuk orang lain. Ms tu saya buat tatau je la dengan dia. That’s the best I can do. Tak dan nak pikiaq dh. Jawab paper tu lagi penting kot. So, dh habis paper, me try to comfort ida sebab dia tak boleh nak jawab a few questions. Tiba-tiba, muncul one of his best buddy, Hid masa kita orang nk tunggu lif. Then, muncul pulak Hush. Masa tu dh terfikir, yang Mr. A mesti ada sama. Dan betul, dia muncul lepas tu. Then muncul sorang lagi geng kita orang, Amri. Kita orang semua dok bincang sal paper yang baru sudah. Then, Hid start to light up his cigarettes. N I know he will also. Huhu… tp, tak. Dia tak nyalakan rokok n tak smoke pun. Ms tu dh pelik dh, tapi buat2 tatau je la walaupun dlm hati bermaharajalela nk tya. Huhu. Seriously, mmg tak ckp apapun ngan dia. Ckp ngan Hid, Hush, Ida, Amri. But never say a word to him. Huhu… Im trying to follow the flow.. huhu… ikut rentak dia. So, lepas tu kita orang bertebaran pulang ke kereta dan motor masing2. Ms nk g ke kereta, amri stop us by n suruh mesej awek dia kata makan kat Sidah. I mesej her awek n drive to Sidah to eat. Entah kenapa ringan sgt tgn nak mesej Mr. A ckp makan kat situ. (kelaziman dulu2 bila nak g makan. Mmg akan mesej geng2 bagitahu makan kat mana. Tp dh bhenti sejak perang dingin ngan bestie dia bermula… huhu…) then, dia reply ckp that his coming n ask me to reserve sit for 5.

Ms tgh carik meja (ida tgh park the car n the rest blum sampai), Hid n Hush sampai n we search tables for K.A.M.I. both decide nk mkn kat luar (bkn kat dalam kedai). Pahtu I realize that kerusi tak cukup n meja tu takkan muat. So I ckp kat Hid : mana cukup ni. A kata dia nak bawak 5 orang. Hid tkejut tp lepas tu dia gelak2. Hid : Alah, sapa je 5 orang tu. A tu dh wakil 3 orang, Y lak wakil 2 orang. 5 la tu. So then, I try to keep myself silent jek. Lepas tu ida dtg. Kita orang 4 orang borak2. pahtu Hush nk merokok. Tp malangnya, angin datang dari arah belakang sein menyebabkan asap rokok tu terkena me n ida. Ida bising la. Dia suruh Hush tukar tempat. So, ida amik tempat Hush n Hush duduk sebelah saya. Pahtu Hush bergurau,

Hush : meh la duduk atas pangkuan ni ha. Macam lucu jek. Korang bercakap mcm ni.
Me : amboi, bukan main hang ye. Dua2 hang nak. Dasyat sgt.
Hush : eh2, jangan. Nanti ada orang jeles. Hahah..
Me : ooppppsss… siapaka?? Hush la nanti ada orang jeles kat kita orang… pahtu nanti carik gado ngan kita orang…
Hush : bukan dari pihak Hush. Dari pihak korang la. Terutama abang A.

Then, I terus diam. Tau siapa dimaksudkan. Huhuhu…so, lepas tu kita orang borak2 cam biasa je. Hid n Amri dh pergi ambik makanan. Lepas tu Zatul dtg, Ajmi dan Fahmi pun datang. Bila orang lain dh dtg, dia orang terus amik nasi n lauk. Then, tetiba nampak kelibat Mr. A n his bestie, miss Y, dtg. Hid : Mim, tgk. Kan aku dh kata dh. A wakil 3 orang . Y wakil 2 orang. Jadila 5 orang kesemuanya. So, I gelak je la. Then, dia orang duduk. Masa tu me, Zatul n Ida je belum amik nasi. A : Tak ambik nasi lagi ke? Ms tu semua orang tak jawab. Saya pun tak jawab sebab tatau dia tya siapa. Huuhu… pahtu Hush tgk saya. Saya buat tatau je la. Then terus ajak Ida pergi amik nasik. Hush dh start mkn dulu. So this is how we sit. Ida ngan fahmi kat kepala meja (both side). My row : Me, Hush, A, n Y. in front of us (ikut susunan L-R) : Hid, Ajmi, Zatul n Amri. Oleh sebab Hush dh makan dulu, jadi semestinya dia habis dulu. dia nk bangun n basuh tgn ms saya tgh makan. But then, dia kata, takpe. Makan dulu. Dia tak leh kuar ikut belakang sebab kat belakang tu ada dinding. So kalau nak keluar, me kena keluar dulu baru dia leh keluar. Then, I serba salah. But Hid ckp : mim, makan dulu. biar je Hush tu. Tp tak sampai hati. So, I bgn jugak. Then, Hush keluar. Hush ckp : masuk dlm, duduk tpt Hush. Nanti dh sudah, Hush duduk tpt mim. Me pun ikut je la. So current sitting situation : yang lain sama, except for me n hush. Bila hush dh sudah basuh tgn, dia duduk kat sebelah kiri which is A kat sebelah kanan. Hush ckp : ni baru betul susunan dia. Baru rasa jadi pengapit yg best tuk pengantin. Pahtu diam je la. Malas nk ambik port. A yg dengar pun, diam je. Lepas tu, Hush nk merokok.

Hush : ko dh sudah ke? (A angguk.)
Hush : tak nak merokok ke? (Pahtu, A geleng.)
Hush : ai, sejak bila pulak ko ni? (A diam. Huhu…)
Then, Hush merokok. Masuk batang kedua,
Hush : Ko tak nak ke? A diam lagi (dari pandangan ekor mata, dia mcm serba salah… huhu..)
Hush : Kau ni tkt bini sgt la. <<< mula2 tak nk amik port pe yang Hush ckp. Tp dok terfikir2 di kepala. Siapakah bini yang dimaksudkan… y this question keep on running in my head : before this (lepas perang dingin), selalu sgt sgt sgt sgt dengar Y panggil A, bibie… ke B… mcm2 tu la bunyi nyer… pahtu siap panggil depan orang ramai lagi… ngan gaya manja segala bagai… (so, semestinya dia orang ni ada paper kan???) so, siapakah bini yang Hush maksudkan??? takkan Y kot… Y tu tak kisah jek guys yang merokok ni… (but then, that quest just running in my head without any answer)
So, I pun continue mkn. Dh habis tu, I malas nak keluar n basuh tgn dulu. so, continue jek borak2 ngan dia orang. Suddenly,

A : dh sudah ke?
Me : Erk? (sambil toleh kat dia)
A : U ni dh sudah ke?
Me : La, nape pulak? U ni nak keluar basuh tgn jugak ke?????
A : aha… I nk….

Belum sempat dia habis ckp, I terus bgn n mintak Hush keluar. Seriously I takde mood nak layan. Boleh jek kalau dia nak keluar kat sebelah Y tu… kenapa mesti nak keluar ikut sebelah me??? Aduila..

Then, I keluar basuh tgn, g amik tisu kat kaunter n patah balik ke meja. Masa lalu kat sebelah Y, I nampak rokok kat tgn dia. (sebab dia letak tangan atas kerusi Y- so obviously me akan nampak rokok tu).so, then, I suruh Hush masuk dalam balik duduk kat tempat macm mula2 tadi. Huhu… Dia merokok tu mcm cover2 sikit… (tataula sememangnya dia wat camtu ke or firasat ni salah) dia mcm seboleh-bolehnya tak nak asap tu kea rah kita orang.. so dia hembus kat arah Y. mayb sebab Ida resdung tak boleh kena asap rokok tu sebab tu dia hembus ke arah sana… huhu.. then, nak dijadikan cerita lagi… sy mintak Hid ajar untuk next paper. dh deal nk jmpa hari jumaat (today) kat fac.
But then,

A : ko janji pukul berapa esok?
Hid : entah. Kul 1 kan mim?
A : eh, ko tak solat jumaat ke? Esok jumaat la…
Hid : Eh, ye tak ye jugak kan. Esok jumaat…
Me : hello, bila masa pulak mim ckp nk jmpa kul 1??? Agak ar… mim kata petang jek. Tak state pun kul bape eh… tolong jgn manipulate kata2 Hid… cukup sorang…. Huhu..

Hid gelak besar jek…
Pahtu we continue borak2… suddenly,

Ida : korang nk wat kat mana esok?
Hid : Mim, dtg umah
(at the same time, A toleh kat Hush n ckp something)
Hid : Bapak ko, A! kot iyer pun tak bagi mim dtg umah aku, tak payah lagu tu. Ckp je la! Mim, dia tak bg mim dtg umah Hid…
A : Eh, apa pulak ni? Tak cakap apa pun Hid.
Hid : Kepala ko. Aku nampak la mulut ko ck apa even tak dengar suara. Agak la ko. Mim…. Dia tak bg mim g umah Hid la… :(
A : Eh, apa pulak? Aku tgh ckp pasal Liverpool la…
Hid : Kepala otak hang! Aku boleh baca mulut kau weh. Pahtu tayang muka menjengkelkan tu kat aku. Muka kau sangat menjengkelkan ok. Jelous la tu!

Before dia orang ni berlanjutan, so I interup them.

M : Okay2 guys. Enough. Mim kena g umah Hid ke sepatutnya??? Huhu… I tot we’re going to meet at the fac? Kan Hid kan?
Hid : huhu… saje je memain ngan mim… pahtu nak jelous pulak mamat tu.
(seriously masa ni tak fhm apa maksud Hid ngan ayat tu… tak nak fhm la… huhu… buat semak diri sendiri jek… so then, I change the topic.. huhu..)

lepas tu, kita orang semua g kaunter. Ms me kuarkan note 50, ajmi ckp “kak, byr sekali”. Pahtu I geleng kepala jek… n tetiba rasa nk tgk belakang. Tgk dia dh stat jalan keluar dr kedai. Y ikut dari belakang. (actually dia panggil ajmi tu kekasih gelap saya… hahaha…ill talk bout this ajmi thingy later… huhu… lau rajin ar nak type.. hehe..) pahtu kita orang bawak haluan masing2. then, I lepaking kat umah ida sementara nk tgu adik dia habis sekolah. Pahtu tgh sembang2, terbukak la cerita pasal Mr. A ni.

Me : u noe what, he didn’t even realize tiffany kat dalam fb pun… So?
Ida : Alah, I rasa dia realize la babe… tp sj buat2 tak nampak kan. Buat2 tatau. I know it. Dia kan mmg jenis mcm tu. Nampak cam tak concern, tp sebenarnya concern.
Me : malas ar nk fkr… lantak dia… tak nak dh buat Y tambah benci kat i… biarla… huhuhu…

Pahtu, kita orang siap2 nk p ambik adik ida. saya ckp nk tgk cerita Loser. Tp tak de siapa nak teman. (ida dah p tgk ngan pakwe dia, so tak bleh nak drag dia tgk cita tu.. huhu…) pahtu ida ckp,

Ida : p la tgk dengan dia, mim.
Me : dia siapa?
Ida : La, A la. Siapa lagi.
Me : (terdiam)
Ida : takkan dia tak tengok kot. Loser bukan cerita jiwang macam valentine tu. Ni action movie. Mcm CSI, Combat. Takkan dia tak tengok. Try la ajak dia.
Me : Hmm, takpela. Terima kasih byk2 atas cdgn u tu… Ajak orang lain je la.
Ida : la, nape pulak???
Me : Takde apa la. Enough is enough la Ida. The current situation is getting worse k. takkan nak tmbh jadi worse. Biarla, I carik orang lain je.
Ida : La, pulak dh. Ajak je la.
Me : Hmm, takpe…. tak nak ajak dia. Biarla.
Suddenly, handset ida bunyi.
Ida : “weh ida! Kau pergi tgk iron man ke?”
Me : Siapa? Hush ke?
Ida : hmm….
Me : Hush la tu. Ajak la dia p ngan kita babe.
Ida : bukan Hush. Its him.
Me : Him? Him siapa? Takkan bf u plak.
Ida : Him la. Your admire.
Me : Erk? Siapaka?
Ida : saja je buat tatau kan. A la.
Me : (terdiam)
Ida : okay2, takpe. Jom kita p ambik adik i.

Lepas tu, otw nak p ambik adik dia. Kita orang ckp pasal wedding dress one of our classmate.

Ida : Kalau I kawen, I tak nak pakai dress babe…. I suka yang simple je. Tak nak havoc sgt. Biasa je. Tp still cantik n menawan.
Me : Kalau I nak pakai dress, memang takkan la. Takde size yang muat kot… Tinggi memang dh confirm2 tak cukup. Haha… (pahtu I diam).
Ida : Haha…
Ida : Babe? Lah, nape lak ni? Tetiba je diam?
Me : Teringat pulak. Huhu… ada orang pernah ckp kat I, lau I kawen pakai wedding dress I mesti cantik. Tapi I kena pakai custom made dress n bukan yang ready made tu. Huhu…
Ida : Siapaka? Ehem ehem… ;p
Me : huhu… I tatau la I yg perasan ke apa. or I confuse ke apa ke. Sbb sememangnya I takkan pakai dress masa akad. Gila apa… mau kena baling ngan mama. (Then I cerita2 punya cerita, terkeluar satu ayat neh :‘Pahtu, A ckp, “bknla I nk u pakai dress ms akad. I tgh ckp sal bersanding kan. Yg kawan I kawen tu pun, kita pergi ms hari persandingan dia kan.”’ – actually, ms ni tersebut nama A. huhu… terlepas…) then,

Ida : A ke yg ckp tu?
Me : (terdiam sebab baru terperasan dh terlepas ckp).
Ida : Alah babe, u tak ckp pun I dh boleh agak dh. Takde orang lain. Takkan ajmi kot. Dua kemungkinan jek. Fahmi ke A. N firasat I mengatakan tak mungkin Fahmi. So, it must be A.
Me : Huhuhu… suatu ketika dulu kot.. n I rasa dia tak maksudkan apa2 pun. Sj nk ckp t masa dia kawen, dia nk suruh isteri dia pakai dress kot.
Ida : (sekadar mengangkat bahu tanda malas nk continue)

Lepas tu kita orang tukar topic lain dn terus gerak g amik amri n Zatul n went straight to sunway pyramid. Ms carik parking, mmg tak rasa apa2. but once I enter sunway pyramid, all the memory on the 14th came back in my head one by one… not even any of it left behind… n that time, my heart feel like crinkled by something really hard n strong n waiting time to burst. But then, I keep on smiling to give some strength to me myself. Then, ida call n said she’s waiting at the cinema with amri n zatul. Once I step on the escalator to be up to the cinema, once again I feel the pain. Coz the place reminds me of da 14th. But then, I try to keep myself smiling. (biar orang lain nampak that im okay n happy). Trying not to show how I really felt inside is really really hard. But then, lupa jap sal memory on da 14th tu sebab ida, zatul n amri keep making jokes n cheering me up (eventho they don’t realize that). Then, meeting up ajmi n fahmi somewhere then we decide to watch the skaters on ice. That time, the pain came again but I try not to think so much bout it. The 6 of us have an eye on the ice floor down there (but this time, I cannot afford not think bout 14th memory. So I decided to move away but then, ajmi ask me something n I cannot move away). Then, we go to Jco. And luckily we didn’t use escalator to go down. Instead, we use elevator. N luckily we didn’t take the New Zealand Ice-cream path n we use Mc D path. I was relief back then. If we use New Zealand Ice-cream path, surely the pain will come again. Huhu…after buying the doughnuts, we went to mc d to eat. N at this one moment, amri mintak izin lari kejap to smoke. N the memory hit me again. OMG, seriously… I think I was crazy. The memory keep on hitting me tanpa belas kasihan. Hati saya pun dh makin remuk n remuk n remuk. Tapi those memory tetap serang saya tanpa henti. Nasib baik saya ada lima rakan yang selamatkan saya daripada kena serang ngan memori tu (walaupun mereka tak sedar benda tu… huhu..)

So, this are all… huhu… Tatau kepada siapa lagi nak share perasaan di dalam ni… Actually, tak nak lah bebankan orang lain dengan luahkan pada mereka. Cukupla diri sendiri merana. Maybe cerita jugak kat orang lain, tp tak semua kot. So, precious crown is one of the way to share what I felt inside… huhu.. sorry for those yang baca coz I’ve taken tooo much time of urs to read this… u can just ignore if u want to… takde paksaan nak baca ke tak.. Hehehe… apapun, my new prinsip now, hadapi dengan senyuman… sebab senyuman boleh buat orang lain gembira n give some strength to ourself….  so, senyum bila ada rasa susah hati, insyaallah, rasa susah hati itu akan kurang or move away… Last but not least, hadapi dengan senyuman… *smile* =)

Before You Say "I Do"

- In an attempt to stop the love of his life marrying the wrong man, George travels back to her wedding ten years previously.-

This is a great movie drama I saw last night on Hallmark… Seriously it was great… the title itself had attracted me to watch it from beginning until end… n after watching it, I really had the satisfaction of the chronology of the story….

This drama is about George who tend to marry a woman named Jane and he worked as advertising executive in one advertising department. Actually, Jane had once before getting married to a guy named Doug. But on their pre-wedding ceremony, Jane caught Doug having sex with the wedding planner in their honeymoon suit. And worst, Doug winkle his eyes to that wedding planner when he try to put the wedding ring on Jane’s finger. So after that, Jane decided not to continue that wedding with Doug. Ten years later, he meet George n they planned to get serious in their relationship. But, on George n Jane’s engagement day, something happen. Jane’s nephew n nieces told her what their mother n father told them about their Aunt Jannie. Its all about bad thing on her previous wedding history. They even told their children not to buy any wedding present for Jane’s second wedding until a year after that incase Jane’s cancel her wedding again. Jane was influence a little bit by what her nephew n nieces had told her. Then, when its time for George to make a toast, Jane actually was interrupted by few guest. “She is too old for a wedding dress.” “Yeah! I hope she didn’t choose white this time.” And many more bad things about her second wedding. She start to think it all over whether it is right to marry George or not.

On the way back to sent her home, both of them talking bout their relationship n future wedding ceremony. They had one reliance : when the traffic light is turning from yellow to red, u make a wish that time n u manage to get through it, your wish will come true. This time around, Jane make a wish but I didn’t remember what was the wish. (but the wish didn’t come true). When they reach Jane’s home, they hug each other and that is the time when Jane pull out their engagement ring (her grandmother’s ring) n put it into George pocket without George realizing it. Then, George go back to his office to finish some work with his buddy, Harvey. After a while, George start to think about Jane because she did promise to call him but she never did. George checked his voicemail and there is one voicemail for him from Jane. This is when Jane made a decision not to continue their wedding and relationship because of her past history. George was worried n try to see Jane. On the way, the traffic light was turning from Yellow to Red and this is the time when George wish to meet Jane before she get married with Doug. And he didn’t manage to get through it. George got caught in accident. But yet, when he was conscious, he actually return to the year 1999! 3 days before Jane’s wedding. This is the climax of the story when George is actually trying to compete with Doug to have Jane as a wife in 3 days time.

And the conclusion, yes!!! George manage to have Jane as his wife before Doug…. Huhuhu…. Seriously, I love this movie sooooo much…. You guys should go and watch it yourself and leave comments to it right…  this movie is really great… the chronological of the story, the role of the characters, and everything was awesome!!!~ so, njoy the great moment in this movie… =) _Before You Say "I Do"_

JODOH~

hye there, peeps... been quiet for quite a while.. ehhe... on 18042010, i juz came back from PD for a Family Day.... walaupun family kita orang dtg lambat coz ive test on saturday n my sibling also have kursus kepimpinan or what so ever.. uhuhu..but then, we njoy ourselves there... :) actually, this family day is under my dad's department... last year, kita orang sefamily dh g... n this year was the second year kita orang pergi join the activity... nak dijadikan cerita... masa tahun lepas, i suka tgk tis one guy... entah nape.. but then, masa kat PD last year, my eyes keep on sticking at him.. hahaha... (gatal mode... ;p) masa tu tatau nama dia sapa, kerja ke student ke... just tau dia tu anak siapa... heheh.. dia jadi mc untuk dinner last year.. sejak tu suka sgt tgk dia... suara dia n the way he handle the program was reallly reallly superb... dia bisa hidupkan suasana ceria kat dalam dewan tu... sewonok sgt... dn tahun ni i am actually expecting him to be there as well n yes, he was there... ;p (gatal mode, second version. :D) masa sampai malam tu, our family tak masuk pun dlm dewan tuk dinner sebab mmg dh lambat sgt... so we decided to eat at the restaurant somewhere nearby... then, pagi esoknya baru nampak him.. heheh... last year, dia tak cakap pun ngan mama i... but this year, siap bergurau senda segala bagai... musykil i.. hahhaa... dia siap amik gmbr kita orang n all that stuff... yela, the ice had been broken kot.. hahah.. sekalinya, baru dpat tau yang dia work under my mum currently.. as a dj... hahah.. lucu siot... n her mum was my dad's staff... ngahahha... lucu2... okay, nak dijadikan cerita lagi.. me n him actually tak pernah cakap pun... entah nape tadi ringan jek mulut nk senyum kat dia n he smile back to me... hehe.. byk kali jugakla,di mana ada i.. di situ ada dia.. ngahaha.. (mode perasan jap.. ;p) ada la satu game neh, i kena paksa main sebab tak cukup orang eventho my age was over limit... hahaha.. but then, i try the game... saja, just for fun kan... n the game was, cari gula2 dlm tepung.. ngahhaha... teringat balik zaman kecik2 dulu.. hehe.. biasalah lepas main game neh, sure muka macam apa kan... tak yah pakai any foundation, foundation kaler putih gading tu yang paling baik.. haha... seriusly muka i comot nak mampus... pahtu dia leh ckp : pose n smile... gila kejadah malu masa tu.. ngahah.. (sewel)... but then, buat tatau je la... hahha.. at this one time, i duduk kat satu wakaf.... n he pun macam nk g kat tempat yang sama... tp sebelum sempat dia sampai, her family (rasanya la or babysitter for his sister or sort of)dtg bawak anak saudara dia.... dia pun tak jadilah nak pergi kat wakaf tu... then, tetiba pulak this aunt panggil dia... then dia datang n main2 ngan anak saudara dia then tetiba dia berdiri kat depan i (tp bagi belakang dia kat i la)... i dok pelik tp buat biasa jek... but then, dia nak smoke, dia terus pergi ke side lain..(mcm tau2 i tak suka rokok..heheh..) lepas tu dia senyum kat i, i pun senyum la balik... then, dia ada cakap something.. but then tatau dia ckp benda tu kat sapa (coz i dont really get what he try to say actually.. hehe...) n aunt tu pun jawab (so, i guess he actually ckp benda tu kat aunt tu...hehhe..) few minutes later, my mum dtg... dia ckp, boleh nak mandi laut tp sekejap jek... then, adik i ajak mandi kolam... terus mama ckp, tak leh mandi kolam sebab kena bayar... huhu... then dia menyampuk "kak, boleh jek mandi kat kolam tu.. lau kata dia suruh bayar, kata kita ni under putrajaya..." then dia tanya i "nak mandi ke?" i tak reply... i gtau mama ckp i nk mandi laut jek... then dia senyum... i senyum je la balik... tak rugi apapun kan.. hehhe.. lepas tu mama ajak i g amik air kat wakaf satu lagi... dia pun gerak sama.. tp dia sampai dulu n terus amik air n sit down... me n mama pun amik air n gerak... lepas tu we had our lunch together... ms i ngah undur kereta, dia pun actually undur kereta... hampir saja bontot kereta kami bercium... ngahah... then, dia bg way untuk i gerak dulu... i park kat depan dewan n tepi... suddenly dia datang, dia terus masuk kat tempat parking exactly depan dewan tak jauh dari kereta i... actually, dari masa i dok reverse keta, n him pun buat yg sama, mama dh mula bercakap sal him... sampai kat parking tuh, mama ckp "tgk dia.. slumber jek...parking ar kat sebelah dia.." <<< tatau apa motif mama i suruh wat camtu... nasib bek i tak follow... sebab, by the time i nak masuk, orang dok sebut sal kereta dia, dia terkocoh kuar dari dewan... n dia alihkan kereta dia n park his car just right beside my car... within that time, dlm dewan, i duduk kat area family dia since kerusi lain dh penuh... suddenly aunt tu tya mak dia,
aunt : mana dedek?
his mak : dedek kena alihkan kereta... kenapa?
aunt : takde apa... (tp masa ni, i tgk aunty neh... dia tgk bg sign mata kat mak dia... n tgk2 i... tp i tak fhm apa maksud dia.. so, i bwat tatau je la..huhu..)

nak dijadikan cerita lagi, masa mkn tgh, my mum keep on cerita sal him n his family.. (dia baikla, dia sopan santun la family dia sgt rapat la apa la... bykla my mum cerita sal dia n family dia.. huhu..) then, tibalah satu acara cabutan bertuah neh... ada satu balang yang berisi nama setiap mereka yang ada di dalam dewan tu... so, one of the cabutan sebut nama "K..... F....." ms tu i tatau nama pnh dia apa... hanya tau nama belakang jek.. ms nama KF neh kena sebut, mama siku2 belakang i... pahtu i toleh, mama senyum n bg sign mata ke arah him.. (seriously, ms neh i tak fhm perhaps sampai skung pun tak fhm apa yng mama cuba sampaikan.. tis time, mama cam hepy gila...nk kata mamat tu dedicate lagu ke apa, tak de pulak.. mamat tu amik hadiah cabutan bertuan jek, yang langsung takde kaitan ngan i... tp lepas tu, i wat tatau je la..)

dh settle makan2 semua... so tiba masa untuk pulang... ms semua orang sibuk nak balik, dia tgh nyanyi karok... then i have to wait for my dad dulu... since my dad nak pastikan semua orang balik dulu... mama ajak i g tak jauh dari stage.. i pun pelik kenapa but still ikut jugak.. then, dia ckp kat mama "kak, balik dah?" mama : aah... nak balik dh... stay nak karok ke? him : "aah..kena paksa duet pulak kak.. HEheheh.." pahtu mama senyum2 kat i.. (tatau apa maksud senyuman mama, then buat tak nampak je la.. huhu..) lepas tu, he smile to me... i senyum je la balik.. then, i g kat anak saudara dia... aunt tu yg bawak baby tu.. i cubit pipi budak tu terus aunt tu suruh baby tu wave kat i sambil mulut dia sebut bye... i pun keluar dari dewan n masuk kan brg dlm kereta.... pahtu, baru terperasan that he parked his car just right beside me... byk g kot tmpt lain.. ngahahha...but then, tak kisah la...so after semua dh settle, kita orang gerak balik... dlm keta, mama ada sebut jugak sal dia.. but then, both me n my dad keep on silent (coz i tatau nape mama keep on talking bout him.. huhu..)

malam tu, i bukak facebook... n terperasan that one of our senior back in kolej dh kawen... kak Sha @ Ija @ Sharifah Khadijah... huhu.. so i bukak pic kawen dia.. suddenly i terperasan dia ada amik gmbr ngan adik/kakak sh. mordiah... our family ada bau2 bacang ngan sh. mordiah... so i panggil my mum n ask her who is that... then, my mum says, it was Sh. Za'arah... n her daughter got married on january... then, i ask, "dia ni ke anak Sh. Za'arah?" then my mum said, not sure muka macam mana... but then, nama dia Sh. Khadijah.. n i ckp la mmg Sh. Khadijah pun nama profile neh...

mama : mudanya anak sh. za'arah ni kawen? berapa umur dia sekarang?
me : 26.. muda ke? macam mmg suitable age to get married...
mama : hmm, kira muda jugak la tu...

then, mama jln keluar from my room n stop kat pintu...

mama : sik sangka, dh tiba masa ma terima menantu... ("tak sangka dh tiba masanya untuk mama terima menantu.." kata mama... n actually this sentence made me terkedu... tuk pastikan that i heard her right, so i ask her back)
me : apa ma?

then, she ignore me n go straight outside my room then she came back n said

mama : sikda, sik sangka ma and aunty itot dh nak nerimak menantu... ("takde, tak sangka ma n aunty itot dh nak menerima menantu.." n i am still blurr with what come out from my mother's mouth.. huhu... susah nk hadam masa neh..)
me : huh?
mama : yalah, kamek orang gik huha huha juak bah... gk njoy... tp sik sangka dh nak nerimak menantu... ("yela, kita orang masih nk njoy tp tak sangka dh nak menerima menantu.." <<< seriously, i tak fhm apa maksud mama... adakah dia sudah bersedia untuk menerima menantu which means dia suruh i carik n bring back home n show her OR she actually have someone in mind to dijodohkan ngan i... huhu... terus i diam then dia pun keluar dari bilik i... i was actually cannot adapt ngan apa dia ckp)

actually, before this, my dad selalu suruh kemas bilit n kemas rumah... he said : kemas la bilik tu.. nanti mak mertua dtg, susah pulak... n seriously ms tu rsa takut sgt... byk kali abah ckp hal mak mertua nk dtg meminang la apa la... im afraid that they want to jodohkan me with sapa2... my mum pun before ne ada suruh kemas rumah n belajar masak supaya senang bila mak mertua dtg meminang... padahal that time, i was single n available (yet, skung pun sama.. huhu) bila mama ckp macam tu tadi, seriously i dh kaitkan apa mama ckp ngan situasi kemas bilik tu.. macam relate jek.. as if ada rahsia tersimpan dlm mereka about my jodoh.. ado, pening-pening... then, i relate lak kejadian mama siku i masa KF ambik hadiah tu (i terfikir sendiri, takkan dia kot yang nak dipadankan ngan i??) aduh, tak nk fkr la... kalau betul, sampai masanya mama akan gtau jugak.. tp tolongla jangan betul semua ni... nk jugak carik jodoh sendiri... (tp lau betul jodoh ngan KF, terima la kan.. just that tak suka bila dipadan2kan ngan orang lain... lebih suka benda tu jadi sendiri... huhu..)apapun, i doakan terbaik untuk diri i... semoga Allah temukan i dengan jodoh yang sesuai... Amin... huhuhu...