JODOH~

hye there, peeps... been quiet for quite a while.. ehhe... on 18042010, i juz came back from PD for a Family Day.... walaupun family kita orang dtg lambat coz ive test on saturday n my sibling also have kursus kepimpinan or what so ever.. uhuhu..but then, we njoy ourselves there... :) actually, this family day is under my dad's department... last year, kita orang sefamily dh g... n this year was the second year kita orang pergi join the activity... nak dijadikan cerita... masa tahun lepas, i suka tgk tis one guy... entah nape.. but then, masa kat PD last year, my eyes keep on sticking at him.. hahaha... (gatal mode... ;p) masa tu tatau nama dia sapa, kerja ke student ke... just tau dia tu anak siapa... heheh.. dia jadi mc untuk dinner last year.. sejak tu suka sgt tgk dia... suara dia n the way he handle the program was reallly reallly superb... dia bisa hidupkan suasana ceria kat dalam dewan tu... sewonok sgt... dn tahun ni i am actually expecting him to be there as well n yes, he was there... ;p (gatal mode, second version. :D) masa sampai malam tu, our family tak masuk pun dlm dewan tuk dinner sebab mmg dh lambat sgt... so we decided to eat at the restaurant somewhere nearby... then, pagi esoknya baru nampak him.. heheh... last year, dia tak cakap pun ngan mama i... but this year, siap bergurau senda segala bagai... musykil i.. hahhaa... dia siap amik gmbr kita orang n all that stuff... yela, the ice had been broken kot.. hahah.. sekalinya, baru dpat tau yang dia work under my mum currently.. as a dj... hahah.. lucu siot... n her mum was my dad's staff... ngahahha... lucu2... okay, nak dijadikan cerita lagi.. me n him actually tak pernah cakap pun... entah nape tadi ringan jek mulut nk senyum kat dia n he smile back to me... hehe.. byk kali jugakla,di mana ada i.. di situ ada dia.. ngahaha.. (mode perasan jap.. ;p) ada la satu game neh, i kena paksa main sebab tak cukup orang eventho my age was over limit... hahaha.. but then, i try the game... saja, just for fun kan... n the game was, cari gula2 dlm tepung.. ngahhaha... teringat balik zaman kecik2 dulu.. hehe.. biasalah lepas main game neh, sure muka macam apa kan... tak yah pakai any foundation, foundation kaler putih gading tu yang paling baik.. haha... seriusly muka i comot nak mampus... pahtu dia leh ckp : pose n smile... gila kejadah malu masa tu.. ngahah.. (sewel)... but then, buat tatau je la... hahha.. at this one time, i duduk kat satu wakaf.... n he pun macam nk g kat tempat yang sama... tp sebelum sempat dia sampai, her family (rasanya la or babysitter for his sister or sort of)dtg bawak anak saudara dia.... dia pun tak jadilah nak pergi kat wakaf tu... then, tetiba pulak this aunt panggil dia... then dia datang n main2 ngan anak saudara dia then tetiba dia berdiri kat depan i (tp bagi belakang dia kat i la)... i dok pelik tp buat biasa jek... but then, dia nak smoke, dia terus pergi ke side lain..(mcm tau2 i tak suka rokok..heheh..) lepas tu dia senyum kat i, i pun senyum la balik... then, dia ada cakap something.. but then tatau dia ckp benda tu kat sapa (coz i dont really get what he try to say actually.. hehe...) n aunt tu pun jawab (so, i guess he actually ckp benda tu kat aunt tu...hehhe..) few minutes later, my mum dtg... dia ckp, boleh nak mandi laut tp sekejap jek... then, adik i ajak mandi kolam... terus mama ckp, tak leh mandi kolam sebab kena bayar... huhu... then dia menyampuk "kak, boleh jek mandi kat kolam tu.. lau kata dia suruh bayar, kata kita ni under putrajaya..." then dia tanya i "nak mandi ke?" i tak reply... i gtau mama ckp i nk mandi laut jek... then dia senyum... i senyum je la balik... tak rugi apapun kan.. hehhe.. lepas tu mama ajak i g amik air kat wakaf satu lagi... dia pun gerak sama.. tp dia sampai dulu n terus amik air n sit down... me n mama pun amik air n gerak... lepas tu we had our lunch together... ms i ngah undur kereta, dia pun actually undur kereta... hampir saja bontot kereta kami bercium... ngahah... then, dia bg way untuk i gerak dulu... i park kat depan dewan n tepi... suddenly dia datang, dia terus masuk kat tempat parking exactly depan dewan tak jauh dari kereta i... actually, dari masa i dok reverse keta, n him pun buat yg sama, mama dh mula bercakap sal him... sampai kat parking tuh, mama ckp "tgk dia.. slumber jek...parking ar kat sebelah dia.." <<< tatau apa motif mama i suruh wat camtu... nasib bek i tak follow... sebab, by the time i nak masuk, orang dok sebut sal kereta dia, dia terkocoh kuar dari dewan... n dia alihkan kereta dia n park his car just right beside my car... within that time, dlm dewan, i duduk kat area family dia since kerusi lain dh penuh... suddenly aunt tu tya mak dia,
aunt : mana dedek?
his mak : dedek kena alihkan kereta... kenapa?
aunt : takde apa... (tp masa ni, i tgk aunty neh... dia tgk bg sign mata kat mak dia... n tgk2 i... tp i tak fhm apa maksud dia.. so, i bwat tatau je la..huhu..)

nak dijadikan cerita lagi, masa mkn tgh, my mum keep on cerita sal him n his family.. (dia baikla, dia sopan santun la family dia sgt rapat la apa la... bykla my mum cerita sal dia n family dia.. huhu..) then, tibalah satu acara cabutan bertuah neh... ada satu balang yang berisi nama setiap mereka yang ada di dalam dewan tu... so, one of the cabutan sebut nama "K..... F....." ms tu i tatau nama pnh dia apa... hanya tau nama belakang jek.. ms nama KF neh kena sebut, mama siku2 belakang i... pahtu i toleh, mama senyum n bg sign mata ke arah him.. (seriously, ms neh i tak fhm perhaps sampai skung pun tak fhm apa yng mama cuba sampaikan.. tis time, mama cam hepy gila...nk kata mamat tu dedicate lagu ke apa, tak de pulak.. mamat tu amik hadiah cabutan bertuan jek, yang langsung takde kaitan ngan i... tp lepas tu, i wat tatau je la..)

dh settle makan2 semua... so tiba masa untuk pulang... ms semua orang sibuk nak balik, dia tgh nyanyi karok... then i have to wait for my dad dulu... since my dad nak pastikan semua orang balik dulu... mama ajak i g tak jauh dari stage.. i pun pelik kenapa but still ikut jugak.. then, dia ckp kat mama "kak, balik dah?" mama : aah... nak balik dh... stay nak karok ke? him : "aah..kena paksa duet pulak kak.. HEheheh.." pahtu mama senyum2 kat i.. (tatau apa maksud senyuman mama, then buat tak nampak je la.. huhu..) lepas tu, he smile to me... i senyum je la balik.. then, i g kat anak saudara dia... aunt tu yg bawak baby tu.. i cubit pipi budak tu terus aunt tu suruh baby tu wave kat i sambil mulut dia sebut bye... i pun keluar dari dewan n masuk kan brg dlm kereta.... pahtu, baru terperasan that he parked his car just right beside me... byk g kot tmpt lain.. ngahahha...but then, tak kisah la...so after semua dh settle, kita orang gerak balik... dlm keta, mama ada sebut jugak sal dia.. but then, both me n my dad keep on silent (coz i tatau nape mama keep on talking bout him.. huhu..)

malam tu, i bukak facebook... n terperasan that one of our senior back in kolej dh kawen... kak Sha @ Ija @ Sharifah Khadijah... huhu.. so i bukak pic kawen dia.. suddenly i terperasan dia ada amik gmbr ngan adik/kakak sh. mordiah... our family ada bau2 bacang ngan sh. mordiah... so i panggil my mum n ask her who is that... then, my mum says, it was Sh. Za'arah... n her daughter got married on january... then, i ask, "dia ni ke anak Sh. Za'arah?" then my mum said, not sure muka macam mana... but then, nama dia Sh. Khadijah.. n i ckp la mmg Sh. Khadijah pun nama profile neh...

mama : mudanya anak sh. za'arah ni kawen? berapa umur dia sekarang?
me : 26.. muda ke? macam mmg suitable age to get married...
mama : hmm, kira muda jugak la tu...

then, mama jln keluar from my room n stop kat pintu...

mama : sik sangka, dh tiba masa ma terima menantu... ("tak sangka dh tiba masanya untuk mama terima menantu.." kata mama... n actually this sentence made me terkedu... tuk pastikan that i heard her right, so i ask her back)
me : apa ma?

then, she ignore me n go straight outside my room then she came back n said

mama : sikda, sik sangka ma and aunty itot dh nak nerimak menantu... ("takde, tak sangka ma n aunty itot dh nak menerima menantu.." n i am still blurr with what come out from my mother's mouth.. huhu... susah nk hadam masa neh..)
me : huh?
mama : yalah, kamek orang gik huha huha juak bah... gk njoy... tp sik sangka dh nak nerimak menantu... ("yela, kita orang masih nk njoy tp tak sangka dh nak menerima menantu.." <<< seriously, i tak fhm apa maksud mama... adakah dia sudah bersedia untuk menerima menantu which means dia suruh i carik n bring back home n show her OR she actually have someone in mind to dijodohkan ngan i... huhu... terus i diam then dia pun keluar dari bilik i... i was actually cannot adapt ngan apa dia ckp)

actually, before this, my dad selalu suruh kemas bilit n kemas rumah... he said : kemas la bilik tu.. nanti mak mertua dtg, susah pulak... n seriously ms tu rsa takut sgt... byk kali abah ckp hal mak mertua nk dtg meminang la apa la... im afraid that they want to jodohkan me with sapa2... my mum pun before ne ada suruh kemas rumah n belajar masak supaya senang bila mak mertua dtg meminang... padahal that time, i was single n available (yet, skung pun sama.. huhu) bila mama ckp macam tu tadi, seriously i dh kaitkan apa mama ckp ngan situasi kemas bilik tu.. macam relate jek.. as if ada rahsia tersimpan dlm mereka about my jodoh.. ado, pening-pening... then, i relate lak kejadian mama siku i masa KF ambik hadiah tu (i terfikir sendiri, takkan dia kot yang nak dipadankan ngan i??) aduh, tak nk fkr la... kalau betul, sampai masanya mama akan gtau jugak.. tp tolongla jangan betul semua ni... nk jugak carik jodoh sendiri... (tp lau betul jodoh ngan KF, terima la kan.. just that tak suka bila dipadan2kan ngan orang lain... lebih suka benda tu jadi sendiri... huhu..)apapun, i doakan terbaik untuk diri i... semoga Allah temukan i dengan jodoh yang sesuai... Amin... huhuhu...

Berhenti Berharap~

hye there.... been busy this few weeks but still i want to spent some time to write something here at my pinky mint page... hehhe...

my current mode : a song by sheila on 7_Berhenti Berharap...

dont know y this song kept repeating in my head like a tape recorder... on monday, i had decided to berhenti berharap towards him... this is because of a few reasons... uhu...

1) im not sure what he felt for me... suka ke, tidak ke... lau suka, suka yang macam mana??? 'suka' or suka as fren or suka macam tu jek??? tak tau nak jawab becoz only him yang ada jawapannya... coz his behavior keep on changing like jarum jam yang berputar.... this one sec, he is like this... another sec, he changed to that... tatau nak rasa apa... huhu...

2) he did mention before, dia nk cari gf yang leh masuk ngan member2 dia.... n member2 dia pun leh masuk ngan gf dia... but then, adala something happen between me n his bestfriend... i went to Perak last weekend (12-14 March) n relationship between me n his bestfriend became worst on that particular weekend... some sort of misunderstanding occur n made his bestfriend hate me so much... huhu... So,i think that he might think hundreds before he want to take me as his special one... huhu...

Better berhenti berharap rather than i put so much hope towards him and at last im the one who suffer... im afraid there is actually no hope and never will be..... huhu...

fyi, its been a while i didn't hug or even touch tiffany... coz i dont want to put so much hope... whenever i saw tiffany, it reminds me of him... then ill start thinking what he felt for me... hhuuhuh..... so, i decided to kept tiffany in the pink bag that he gave before...

as tonight, i think im gonna hug n bring back tiffany in my bed.... rasa rindu lak nak peluk dia ms tidur.... huhu...

hopefully, he is doing alright where ever he is... huhu...

Meet my Tiffany.... :)

Tiffany_one of Valentine's gift from him =)

::Noktah Cinta::

Ternyata semua bicaraku
Tersimpan di dalam hatiku
Ternyata semua soalanku
Tak pernah kau fikir di fikiran

Mengapa kau masih
Mencari kepastian dalam cinta
Dan disini masih
Menanti jawapannya

Korus
Tuhan tolong nyatakanlah
Padanya tentang cinta
Adakah masih diriku di perlukan

Tuhan tunjukkan padanya
Tentang apa yang ku fikirkan
Adakah cinta ini
Perlu untuk dirinya

Berbicara tentang cinta kita
Masih tiada noktah penghujungnya
Berbicara tentang perasaan
Simpan saja semua itu

Mengapa kau masih
Mencari kepastian dalam cinta
Dan disini masih
Menanti jawapannya

SINGER : HAFIZ AF7

:: i love this song very much~ macam seolah-olah sedang bercerita pasal perasaan saya ketika ini dan almost of the time..... :) suara Hafiz dlm lagu ni memang terbaik... lyric pun memang menyentuh hati dan membawa maksud yang mendalam.... credit to song writer n composer!!!~ n of course to Hafiz with a great vocal for such a great song.... Video klip dia pun memang menarik n best sangat-sangat.... so, let the song beat in your heart n the lyrics stay in ur mind.... enjoy..... _Noktah Cinta_ :) ::

Kelahiran Agung~

Salam to all Muslim... :)

hari ini, 12 Rabiulawal 1431H..... Satu hari yang sangat bermakna dalam hidup kita... Tarikh Kelahiran Agung, Nabi Muhammad S.A.W... selawat ke atas baginda...

teringat lagu nasyid zaman sekolah dulu... not sure with the lyrics, hopefully it was right...

12 Rabiul Awal mengisi angkasa

Mengingati Kelahirannya

Menifestrasi Murni, Muhammad

Muhammad dalam kenangan

Bagai Obor Menyinar Dunia

Lahirnya, Hijrahnya, Jihadnya,

Pada Tuhan

Sederap Kaki Melangkah

Mengingati Muhammad

Semarakkan Semangat Keislaman

and another one which are one of my favourite nasyid's song...

"Nabi Anak Yatim" - by Raihan n Nowseeheart

Muhammad.... Muhammad.... Muhammad Mustafa...

Ibunya bernama Aminah

Ayahnya bernama Abdullah

Dilahirkan di Mekah Mukarramah

Ibu susunya, Halimatus-Saadiah

Ayahnya meninggal dunia

Tika Nabi di dalam kandungan

Alangkah sedih pilunya

Ibunya menjaga Baginda

Muhammad Mustaffa....

Semasa di dalam perjalanan

Pulang dari makam suaminya

Aminah jatuh sakit di Abwa'

Kembali ke Alam Baqa'

Tinggallah nabi seorang diri

Hilang insan yang dikasihi

Tinggallah nabi seorang diri

Mengajarnya hidup berdikari

Anak yatim anak yang mulia

Dilindungi Allah setiap masa

Terpadam api di biara Majusi

Runtuhlah istana Kisra Parsi

Mekah diterangi cahaya putih

Tanda lahir Nabi anak yatim

Anak yatim anak yang mulia

Dilindungi Allah setiap masa

Sallallahu Ala Muhammad Sallallahu Alai Wassalam

Sallallahu Ala Muhammad Sallallahu Alai Wassalam

Hidupnya yatim yatim piatu

Tiada ayah tiada ibu

Hidupnya yatim, yatim piatu

Namun Dialah manusia Agung

Selawat dan salam ke atas Junjugan Mulia, Muhammad S.A.W.... semoga Allah merahmati kehidupan umat Muhammad S.A.W.... :)

Salam Maulidur Rasul... :)

Is This Real, or it is Just a Part Of the Drama???~

19 feb 2010....

its almost a week after the valentine.... dunno how to say bout my feeling inside... huhu... actually, i kept thinking of him (not in a happy way n not also in a bad way... huhu...) better for me to say, i kept thinking of his behavior.... he seems to avoid me in certain ways n sometimes he cares so much about me... what is he actually felt for me???? does he really like me or just trying to be nice to me or.... i dont know... his behavior seems to be changing from day to day... huhu... one day, he seems like sharing the same feeling that i have n the other day, he just seem like being a friend of mine (no more 'that' feeling..) n the other day, he seems so care about me... he made me so confuse of his feeling n made mine too~ huhu... what does he felt for me actually? what am i to him??? >> a friend, a member, a classmate, an ordinary girlfriend, 'someone' in his heart or etc???? how can i find the answer of this quest??? its really complicated n confusing me... all this while, im the one who start to sms's him.... n after a few tymes, i told myself not to start anything till he does... but he never did... until that one morning, he sms me : Is everything alright? >> he can even made me fly to the moon by just asking this... is this good or im just being a drama queen???? huhu...

But today, one of his sms is actually made my mood goes down... there something happen in his family actually... then i ask how his mother doin after that thing happen... n his answer really dissapointed me... :( he did reply bout his mother n this one sentence really made me down... 'dont bother bout me...' >> OMG!!! What is he trying to tell me???? Salahkah kalau I ambik berat???? This one sentence seem telling me that im a stranger that try to interfere in his life…. OMG…. Seriously im disappointed with him for saying that… he told me once : don’t treat me like a stranger would u???? pleaseee >>> what does this mean??? I cant but he can??? L

Come to think about it, he really treated me like a stranger in certain ways… especially involving his ‘inner’ feeling…. He never want to share what he felt inside…. He think that keeping that all by himself is better rather than express it out to someone…I hope, if he does like me, i wish that he share what ever he felt inside to me coz i dont wanna be treated like a stranger... n if he dont he can still share his feeling n problems to me becoz i am his friend... n i dont want to think much of this becoz it ruined my mood.....

"i kept thinking of his behavior~ is this real or it is just part of the drama????!!!~" >>> betul ke dia suka??? Atau sekadar permainan kata dan masa??? Tak sanggup rasanya kalau ini sekadar satu permainannya.... kerana hati dan perasaan bukan permainan.... huhu...

pepatah melayu ada mengatakan : kalau padi, katakan padi... tidak aku tertampi-tampi.... kalau sudi, katakan sudi... tidak aku ternanti-nanti... huu.... ('A man's got to do what a man's got to do... When he falls for a girl, he'll tell her right away' and if he doesn't, dont ever try to 'play' with her feelings becoz u'll never realize what u will get back later..)

Me, 'Him' & Great Memories... =)

today, 15th February 2010...(a day after valentine day)

i kept thinking of 'him' rite after i wake up from my sleep...everything i done today lead me to him... i was always thinking of what he had done yesterday... how he treat me, how he share his stories with me, how he wanna spent time with me, how he spoke to me, how patient he listen to all what i'm saying, how he try not to smoke in front of me, how sweet he were when he wanna ask permission from my parents to bring me out (of course i didnt give any chances to that...), how he is actually spending for me and another 'how' things that he had done yesterday... seriously, i keep on smiling whenever i start to think of him... OMG, what is going on with me actually???? did i really fall for him??? seriously??? ..

this are few things happened to us yesterday :

1) he came to pick me up at my apartment n he asked whether he should go up n meet my parents to asked for a permission for bringing up their daughter out... but then, of course i didnt want to coz im so afraid of what my parent would say... huhu... (i rewarded him points for this... :))

2) then we drive to Alamanda to meet his friend there and then we went to Banting for a wedding... I dont even know who's wedding we are actually heading to... he only told me that it was his colleague's wedding and want me to accompany him... when we arrive at the wedding, he treat me really well... OMG, it was really sweet...

3) right after that, he asked me where are we going... then i answered, it is up to him... if he want to sent me back home, he can do so... or if he wanna me to accompany him for some time, then it wouldn't be any problem as well... then, he decide to bring me to Sunway Pyramid... before we arrived at sunway, he stopped by at Esso... he actually want to reload his touch n go card but by the time we arrive there, i was telling my past experience in relationships... he waited for me to finish my stories, then only he go reloaded his touch n go card... ( another points - for patiently waiting for me to finish my stories...huhu.. n also how he wanna spent time with me instead of sending me home... :) )

4) we arrived at sunway pyramid... then i asked him wheather he want to smoke or not... becoz 'all that while' when he were beside me, he just had one cigarette when we reach alamanda... but its outside the car when he was talking to his friend... then he says no... (another points there)... we go to the cinema but then it was fulled... i think most of the couples wanna watch "Valentines" film... so, we decide not to watch movie...

5) then we decided to have a sit at New Zealand Ice-cream and watching the skaters showing there skills down there on the ice... he asked me either i want to have an ice-cream or not... i just tell him that i actually want to have a drink...so, i ordered a fresh orange n he go for green apple juice...then when i want to pay for that, he asked me to go reserve for our sit n left that to him... when he sit beside me, then i asked how much do i need to pay to him n he said, no need... (another points - but im not actually liking that becoz i dont want to 'terhutang budi dgn siapa-siapa'... huhu.. )

6) kesian lak ngan dia sbb kena tahan diri dari smoking in front of me... so, i asked him to go outside n smoke but then, he didnt want to... i paksa2 jugak, then at last dia setuju gak... n this one thing he said before he go off smoking really made me speechless... he said 'THANKS'.... OMG!!!! (another points there... huhu... - this is actually for 'menolak tuk smoking n he say thanks for giving him permission to smoke... huhu..)

7) then we heading to jusco to search for wedding present for our classmate... but then, one of my friend call and says she were heading towards sunway... so i asked him wheather he wanna stay there or head to somewhere else... coz i noe he might dont want our geng to know that he are actually taking me out for valentine... huhu... (mls nk kena gelak n sakat ngan member sbnrnya... huhu..) then, he say >>> lets go to the curve...

8) when we reach the curve, i asked him where and what are we actually doing there at curve... he say, lets go watch movie... huhu... then, i asked what movie... he say lets take a look a Valentine first... n i was shocked when he actually says that.. huhu... but then, while waiting for our turn, i asked him again izit true that he want to watch that movie... then he only 'sengih' to me... i ckp 'tak yah paksa lau tak nak tgk... kita tgk cita lain...' then, he seems to be 'serba-salah'... so, i say, lets watch "Percy Jackson & the Lightning thief" instead of watching "Valentine"... and he was so happy for my decision... (another point here - coz he actually want to 'take care of my heart n feeling' when he decide to watch V eventho he doesnt really want to...hahha...) n after that, he kept on saying sorry to me for not watching V... sweet isn't it??? huhu... perhaps, he did say, 'kita tgk V tu hari lain k?'... OMG... tatau da nk ckp camana.. huhu..

9) while waiting for the movie, we have a chit chat outside the Ceneleisure... a lot of topic we were discover... huhu... n frankly speaking im the one who had done a lot of talking instead of him... he were patiently listening to me... OMG.... :)

10) there's a lot of great memories i had with him last night... but if i want to tell every single thing, its not going to finish... hehhe... but then, this is the best part.... when he sent me home, he tell me not to forget my 'bunga telur' from the wedding that i put at the back sit of his car... but then, when i want to take it, he say 'wait... let me..' then he take all of my things (bunga telur package n a bag plastic from my babe).. when i was busy with my things, suddenly he hand out a pinky bag to me... n i was really shocked for that n i asked 'what is this?' then he laughed n say 'for u on a valentine day'... OMG!!! he really made me speechless n very shocked with that.. huhu.. n i dont noe how was my expression that time... seriously i dont even think that he had a surprise present for me... n he really made me speechless n i dont what to say again.. huhuhu... i was really shocked that time.. huhu...

>>> he gave me a 'cat' name tiffany n Beryl's Romance Milk & White Choc.... :)

>>> when i reached home, i thanked him by sms... and what he said in the SMSes was really made me flying to the stars... huhu... does he feel the same way as i do????

>>> i am actually dont want to put so much hope towards him becoz im afraid he didnt feel the same way as i do... but, from his act, his behavior, his words, his treat ; im quite confident that he is actually share the same feeling with me... but i cant made any conclusion until he confess or at least telling me what he feel inside of his heart...

>>> so now, just act like usual... huhuhu... 'lau ada jodoh tak kemana...' apapun, i will owez terima dengan redha... harap2 ada sinar bhgia untuk ku.... :)

It's New Year 2010!!!~

It's been a while that i updated my blog... huhu... today is 01012010.... a new day in a new year.... :) Wishing u a happy new year n may this year bring more happiness, joy, love, health and wealth to us... n may this year be better than last year... ;) when coming to new year, people usually ask u what is ur resolution... for a few years back, i never made any resolution to avoid frustration at the end of the year when that resolution doesnt goes like what u want it to be... heheh... but, for this new year 2010, my heart are open to make resolutions... but i wanna put it in a few phases... :) here goes my phases of resolutions :

1) phase 1 (time for accomplish it is within jan to may 2010) :
a) i want to raise up my pointer to a better one
b) i should try as hard as i can to get a dean list for my final semester
c) i have to be more hardworking n if possible avoid laziness from controlling me myself... ;)
d) i want to slow down in involving myself in programmes and activities... i should had enough for the last 2 years back for my resume.. huhu..
e) i wanna make my parents happy and proud of me towards the end of my bachelorhood... :)

2) phase 2 (time for accomplish are after may 2010 n most probably can be done after my graduation day around october 2010) :
a) i would like to search for a job in C n S consultant offices
b) if possible i want to be a structural engineer
c) i want a big number of salary... huhu
d) but if i cant get to work in consultant, i'd go for developer n my last resort will be working in contractor's company.
e) places that are in consideration of applying is within KL, Shah Alam, Damansara, Petaling Jaya, Ampang or to be shorten, within Klang Valley area.
f) If i have an offer from a construction company, i would preferably go for Site Engineer and not C.O.W. Safety Officer will be in consideration as well.

3) phase 3 (time for accomplish is after may 2010 and before i get a job) :
a) i would like to travel the whole western of Malaysia.... if possible i would like to go to each and every state and town. (but this is depending on my budget later... huhu... )

4) phase 4 (time for accomplish are within the whole year of 2010) :
a) to be a better person, daughter, sister, bestfriend, niece, granddaughter, cousin, friend n many more...
b) to search for 'my-knight-in-shining-amor' or to be exact search for 'him'...
c) to gain more money and wealth
d) to enjoy wisely....


for meanwhile, this are 4 phases of my resolutions... it might grow up in future because we don't know what is our fate and what miracle will happen.. hope i can make all this 4 phases or part of it come true within this 1 year... n hope u will too~ njoy ur new year n last but not least, Happy 2010.... :)