baju seksi SENGET~ :)

B : Hello

A : Assalamualaikum

B : Waalaikumsalam

A : Batrisha, ni Pak Nil la...

B : (Gelak comel)

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A : Panjang ke pendek rambut awak?

B : Pendek..

A : Kenapa tak bela rambut panjang?

B : Tamao~ Lemas lah... Panas lah...

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B : Hari ni cuti sekolah

A : Oh, hari ni cuti sekolah... Sekolah kat mana?

B : Sekolah Kampung Pasiaq (Pasir) Merebuk ( Ni i tak sure), Kedah..

A : Dekat rumah tolong mak tak?

B : Batrisha baru bangkit tidoq...

A : Owh, baru bangkit tdoq... kenapa tdoq siang2?

B : Tdoq siang lagi syok

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A : Nak tidoq gelap2 ke?

B : Sukaaa tidoq gelap2... Aircond ada...

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B : Happy besday, uncle...

A : Bila pulak besday uncle?

B : Nanti nak beli kek kat uncle.. kek besar la.. nak warna apa tu?

A : Uncle nak warna pink

B : Pink tu warna pempuan la...

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A : Batrisha, baju Batrisha seksi ke?

B : Berdosala kalau pakai baju seksi.. nanti berdosa Tuhan maRah... ( R i letak huruf besar sebab nak tekankan loghat dia... ) masuk api neraka uncle... tak malu... sapa nk p jalan2, jangan pakai bj seksi SENGET (ni tatau apa maksud dia.. tp comelss~)... pki baju biasa xpela...

A : Baju seksi kan cantik?

B : Ai!!!~ Nampak ketiaq la... mana bole pakai baju seksi nampak ketiaq...


Comelsss gila babas a 6 year old Batrisha from Kedah... boleh dengar kat ERA.FM dalam segment Cayang Dia (tarikh siaran 26 Januari 2011)... dengar sendiri lebih best... loghat Kedah dia, terbaek la... tulus jek budak 6 tahun punya percakapan.. so, selamat mendengar dan tersenyum dengan kaletah Batrisha ni.. :) njoy~

KuCHiNg!!!~

Finnally arrived at Kuching International Airport yesterday... Yeehaaa.... glad to see all those faces i missed a lot... all those plat numbers starting wif 'Q' n those places i want to see before this when im in kl... huhuhu.... what a great pleasure to be here in my own home town... HOME SWEET HOME... places where i belong, where my heart is... :)

The Door Was Close Until Further Notice~

Today, I have decide to get out of this nonsense thing, this situation… I have decided to close the door of my heart until one time that I am ready to open it up again for guys… I just had enough of all this heart break, all this playing games with my hearts, all this waiting n what ever thing n situation that hurt me all this while. I just had enough. I decide not to wait for Mr. A anymore n yet not going to give any chances to other guys as well until one time that I’m sure I’m ready for that.

Seriously, I cannot bare it anymore. I just cant wait n to be broken hearted again. I’ve been through a lot of situation that hurt me n I just cant bare it anymore. My heart n feeling is not something to be fooled around, to be played around… people don’t know how it feels to be one like a living doll, how it feels to be the one who had been fooled around, how it feels to be one who other peoples thing that it has no feeling, how it feels to be the one that given hopes n yet the hopes didn’t even exist… people just don’t know how it felt…. It was like a heart crinkled by something hard, n waiting the time to burst into the air…. The cut was deep n it just can’t stop bleeding….

Mr A : Decide not to wait for Mr. A coz im tired of waiting. Im tired of giving hints n yet he act nothing, he ignore everything… I’m not trying to push him to select me as his gf… I just want to know what did he felt for me… why does he start all this at the first moment if he just want to play around… No matter what reasons for him to holds up what ever he does, I just cant wait anymore… Let he keeps all those reasons why… im tired of being a stupid one… chasing something that don’t worth to… chasing something that doesn’t care… giving hints to someone who ignores it… im just too tired of all that… Jangan nanti bila I dah takde perasaan kat dia, dia kembali terhegeh2 dekat i…. (becoz that’s what usually happen to me… huhu…) maybe, cannot stop immediately to let go of him, to forget about him… it takes time… n im willing to give that time for my own sake… I noe, I will let go of him, let go of what ever memory we’ve been through, let go all related things to him one day… it takes sometime to healed… huhu… n I just hope, Mr. A will be happy in what ever he do.

Z H : He had come back… but I don’t really like of this come back. I’m sure of my feeling towards this guy. I’ve try to open my heart n give chance to him to prove that he can find the key to my heart before. N yet he couple up with some one else. Bermati-matian asking bout me from others, getting helps from others to get me, stalked my FB profile everyday in order to know what am I doing, give hints towards me about his feeling n at last he couple with other girl…. Am I that hina? I ni takde perasaan ke? Boleh dibuat sesuka hati macam tu? Apa motif dia? Nak tengok sejauh mana I bg response than just ignore my feeling? Nak tengok sejauh mana dia macho sebab dapat permainkan perasaan perempuan??? OMG! Im not a specimen okay. Im not a doll that doesn’t have any feeling n heartless. Im a human, a girl with feeling n heart. Lepas buat camtu, kena tinggal dengan perempuan lain, then come back to me??? Gila apa… he had ruined his own chances by doing all that!! N bila buat come back, serious I don’t like the way he had tried so hard to win back my heart. I just can accept it. He try so hard to get me…. He want to win back my heart mcm petik jari. Lagi cepat lagi bagus… don’t want to wait any minutes to have my attention again. Oh, tolonglah… ingat aku neh apa? Lepas ko buat macam tu, ko ingat senang2 aku nak beri peluang kedua??? Mmg takkan lah…. For your information, u neh dh jadi slh satu penyebab I hilang trust towards men.. hilang trust towards what ever man said to woman… walaupun bukan penyebab utama, tp terimala hakikat yg u dh jadi one of the reasons why… huhu… Giving him a second chance??? Hmm, let the destiny n time be judges n decide the answer… I just don’t want to think bout other people’s feeling anymore… it’s time to be selfish n just thinking of my feeling….

Fahmi : I don’t know how to tell him that I don’t have feeling towards him. All this while, he is just a friend of mine. Nothing more…. My geng, my buddies but never will be more. He had confess what he felt for me in one email n I’ve reply to him. I mention that I cant fall for him coz I’ve fall for someone else. Even if I don’t fall for anybody, still I cannot accept him as my boyfie. Maybe we just meant to be friends. But he never try to accept it, not even once. Still trying to win my heart, trying to ignore what ever I told him before… Ish, tak boleh ke fhm bhsa Melayu yg senang tu. Aku tak boleh terima ko, okay. As for me, once I consider him as a close friend, hard for me to chance it to something else or something more. I mmg susah nak tukar taraf orang yg kawan dengan i. Kalau I dh terima dia as a geng rapat, mmg susah nak tukar benda tu g benda lain mcm jadi bf ke. Dh ckp, tp dia macam buat aku neh tak pernah cakap apa2. Aduila, tolong la faham… Tak payah nk ckp syg2, rindu2 segala bagai… I just cannot accept n reply it. Ingatkan lepas gtau perkara sebenar, dia leh terima me as a friend like before. Tp dia ignore la pulak apa aku ckp yg benar tuh… waaa, sakitnya bila fikir…

So, sekarang ni… I try to let go of Mr. A slowly, tapi tak beri peluang untuk lelaki lain as well. I just want to be alone… Pampered myself, take care of my own feeling instead of other, n focus on job seeking. Tak nak dengar apa orang cakap, tak nak fikir apa orang rasa, tak nak ambik tau apa orang fikir…. It’s my heart n feeling… I decide what is the best for me…. Not other people… So, sekarang ni, ko suka aku ke, ko nak rebut hati aku balik ke, ko nak permainkan perasaan aku ke, ko nk kata ko rindu ke, ko nak hold apa ko rasa kat aku ke, ko nak buat apa, AKU TAK KISAH… sekarang, yg aku tau, aku nak jaga hati aku sendiri… Aku dh penat jaga hati orang lain, tapi orang tak pernah pun nak consider jaga hati aku… Just nak jadi single, tak nak peduli perasaan suka kat orang lain or tak nak consider perasaan suka orang lain kat I… I just want to be alone… Semoga ada seseorang yang akan menyuluhkan sinar bahagia buatku di masa hadapan… Semoga akan berjumpa dengan seseorang yg betul2 penyabar untuk cari kunci pintu hati I… Semoga ada orang yang mmg ikhlas nak dekati I, yg terima I seadanya, yg tahu I juga punya hati dan perasaan, yg tahu I bukan barang permainan dan yang akan jaga diri dan hati I seikhlas n sejujurnya…. Amiin…

Dreams~

Today, I dream something weird… huhu… tataula weird ke tak… tp for me mmg agak weird… huhu… I dreamt of him! Him who? I dreamt bout mr. A. hahahha… gilo… kenapa pulak la boleh termimpi pasal dia, I pun tatau… huhu… I mimpi dia bawak I pergi rumah family dia n kenalkan I ngan family dia (which in real life mmg tak akan terjadi la kot). Rasa cam sgt pelik.

The dream start mcm ni, he asked me out. Masa tu ada sorang kawan nama Syikin. (padahal dalam geng kita orang mmg takde orang nama Syikin neh… haha… Nampak sangat…) dia tak ckp dia nak bawak I g jumpa mama n abah dia. Tau2 jek dh sampai rumah dia. Ms tu expression I mcm coolio giler… mcm dh pernah g for few tymes. Huhu…. Then, dia kenalkan me n syikin tu kat mama dia. Mama dia tanya, yang mana gf dia n both me n syikin tak jawab sebab tatau. Hahha.. lucu nak mampos. Then, ada kazen dia nama Ain was there too… (tatau betul ke dia ada kazen nama ain.) tapi tak faham apa function kehadiran ain kat situ… hahha… yg pasti I jadi bahan penilaian hari tue. Dia siap tumpahkan air dalam cawan masa dia nak letak atas meja. Huhu… tp lepas tu mama dia ada ckp something yg mcm ckp I ni bukan menantu pilihan dia or something. Then, I terjaga… byk sebenarnya cronologies mimpi tuh… tp malas nk ingat balik apa.. heheh..

Sebenarnya, dh tiga ke empat kali I mimpi sal dia start dari kita orang busy ngan IDP dulu. First time, mimpi I dikenalkan ngan family dia jugak. But this time masa wedding adik or abang dia. I think wedding adik dia kot. Sebab masa tu, kakak ipar dia dh pegang baby. Tatau la. Then, dia bawak I g umah dia untuk tolong2 wedding abang dia tuh. N lepas tu, I dah tak ingat apa benda… huhu…

Second dream, I ingat dia ajak I kuar. Kita orang tgk movie ke apa ntah. Tp mcm dlm panggung la. But I tak ingat sgt mimpi neh. Huhu…

Orang kata, kalau kita mimpikan seseorang, itu maknanya kita ingat kat seseorang tu. Ye ke? I tatau la I ingat kat dia ke tak. Rasa cam biasa2 jek. Ingat lah kat dia, tapi takdela sampai kronik. Biasa2 jek.. Entahlah. Mimpikan cuma mainan tidur… anggap je la macam tu… and ada jugak orang kata, bila jadi kat dalam mimpi, ia nya takkan jadi di alam nyata. Yang ni rasanya agak betul jugak kot… heheh… apapun, let time and destiny be judges. Kalau ada jodoh, tak ke mana, ye tak??? Huhu…

AF Finals~

OMG!!!! I really had all the satisfaction when watching Final Akademi Fantasia 8, tonight. Really had a blast one… Tak pernah dalam 8 tahun sejarah Akademi Fantasia, I was fully satisfied after watching the final. But tradisi itu dipecahkan bila I tengok Kosert Final Akademi Fantasia 8 neh. Sgt2 puas hati. From the presenters (Jimmy n Sarimah), to its critics, to its finalist, to its songs, to its performances, to its baju, to its winner, to its everything. It just satisfied me well. Congratulations to AF8 winner, finalist, Pengetua, Crews and Productions for a well done final concert of all AF’s.

First, I would like to comment about the songs for finalist AF8. OMG!!!! All the songs selected was really nice n fit the finalists’ genre. The production of AF 8 was really superb in selecting a good song for a student. Huhu… and the new songs was also superb!

Secondly, I was really satisfied by the hand’s juries decision to put Shahir as a winner, Adira as first runner up, Daus as second runner up, Maulana and Iwan as third n fourth runner up. The result was great. Huhu… Actually, at the first moment, I was aiming for Adira or Shahir to be the winner. Since both of them had a well done performance for the past 10 weeks. But, when watching the final, I think Shahir is deserve to have the title. What he did in the concert was superb n pure.

Third, I would like to comment about each of the finalist performances n also their songs. We start with the winner, Shahir.

1) Shahir : With the songs, “Biru Mata Hitamku” and “Kebahagiaan Dalam Perpisahan”, Shahir did well to capture n mesmerized people with his pure n unique voice. Kebahagiaan dalam perpisahan was the greatest song that suit Shahir well. The lyrics, the song n the voice was all the great deals n package. After the concert, I look at Shahir’s video clip for Kebahagiaan dalam Perpisahan and it was really brilliant idea. Great song, meaningful lyrics, mesmerizing voice n superb video clips make it worth to heard n watch. And when he’s singing Biru Mata Hitamku, it was fabulous. Start up with R & B then it turns to rock, I was amazed by his performance. He really did well for this final concert. And the title winner was worth for him after what he did for the past 10 weeks. Congratulation, Shahir. :)

2) Adira : The only female finalist for AF 8, I think she deserve a first runner up for this AF8. “Tiru Macam Saya” and “Ku Ada Kamu”, two songs that have their own uniqueness to be hits on the radio. When she sing “Ku Ada Kamu”, with that red dress, tidy n long hair, the kids as backup vocals….. all I can say is she is really fabulous. The performance was really great. But, I don’t like when she perform “Tiru Macam Saya” songs. She didn’t be like what she should be. She should give more. Dia macam kaku, n tak gunakan pentas dengan baik. She should be like Lisdawati or better be more than what Lisdawati gave. Lagu “tiru macam saya” ni ala gedik-gedik sikit, ngegeh-ngegeh kata orang Sarawak. ;p she should give more. Tapi dia buat macam ala kadar, macam x cukup pun. Tapi, nak buat macam mana kan, maybe she’s nervous ke apa ke. Takpela. N masa nyanyi lagu neh, dia nyer voice macam agak besar. N I rasa tak berapa menarik bila buat voice macam tu. Suara dia dh cukup besar, tak perlu dibesarkan lagi kot… huhu… pandangan I jek.. heheh.. tapi, apapun, she did well for this final concert. Dia mmg konsisten dari awal lagi. So, dapat tempat kedua, I rasa mmg berbaloi. :)

3) Daus : one of my favourite contestant from Sarawak after bob af2, hafiz and aisyah, af 7. :) before this, orang critic kata vocal Daus neh bermasalah. I can see that. Tapi akhirnya dia berjaya jugak stay sampai final n dapat tempat ketiga. Congratulation, Daus. Heheh… Sebenarnya, si Daus ni agak comel orang nya. Character dia yang suka buat something funny and make people laugh is the most valuable assets he should maintain for surviving in the industries. :) mmg diakui, suara dia agak kureng berbanding peserta2 lain. Tapi effort dia mmg patut dapat pujian. But for this final concert, I really satisfied with his performance and voice. Dengan lagu “Doktor Pakar Cinta” and “Kenapa”, I think he deserve to be as second runner up. Both lagu agak catchy tapi suits him well. Terperasan jugak ms Daus bawak lagu “Doktor Pakar Cinta” tu suara dia ada ala2 macam Yusry sikit. Huhu… n Lagu “Kenapa” tu pulak, I perasan suara dia mcm okay. Tak macam dalam concert before2 neh. Uhu… n looking at the video clip, I sgt suka dengan idea vid clip tu. Sgt menarik n lain dari yang lain. Walaupun orang kata, ala bodoh2 bangang sikit, tapi I rasa the idea was great. Differ from others. Itula yang industri nak cari. Lain dari yang lain. I think betul kata Pak Nil, Daus sesuai dengan genre lagu yang lucu-lucu and catchy. Semoga Daus terus mengekalkan genre dia yang unik n boleh kekal lama dalam industri.

4) Maulana : Pelapis untuk irama jazz Malaysia, yang boleh menggantikan Datuk Shiela Majid dan kumpulan Gerhana Ska Cinta. Maulana boleh menjadi seangkatan dengan kumpulan Tilu. Genre jazz sgt sesuai dengan vocal Mau. Dengan lagu “Susun Silang Kata” dan “RSVP”, Maulana did his best shot. Terutama sekali dalam lagu baru, RSVP. Dalam lagu “Susun Silang Kata”, for me dia buat biasa2 je. Tapi he did give the best shot for his new song, RSVP. Baju yang digunakan pun sesuai. Lagu RSVP mmg sesuai dengan Mau. Kehadiran one of Tilu’s group member (tak ingat nama dia) memberikan lagi kekuatan dalam lagu baru itu. Memang terbaik dari ladang. :) N the video clip was super duper marvelous. Dengan ilham ‘kembali ke zaman hitam putih’, RSVP mmg coolio giler. Like the songs, lyrics, voice n the vid. Seriously, sgt2 suka. I menjangkakan Maulana akan bertahan dalam industri sebab tak ramai artis baru yang meletakkan genre Jazz sebagai genre yang mereka perlu pertahankan. Dalam industri boleh dikira, berapa kerat jek artis yang mempertahankan irama jazz ni. N Mau boleh melangkah maju dengan genre tersebut. Dalam semua video clip finalist af8, I paling suka dengan RSVP from Mau. The idea was the greatest. Keep on going with Jazz genre, Maulana. :)

5) Iwan : Pemenang tempat kelima, Iwan, bagi I deserve tempat kelima atas persembahan yang biasa2 dalam konsert terakhir. Rasanya tempat kelima, sesuai dengan usaha yang Iwan berikan. Bagi lagu “Relaku Pujuk”, Iwan seharusnya diberikan pujian untuk persembahan yang memberansangkan. Tapi untuk lagu “VIP”, I rasa persembahan Iwan just fine. Takde wow factor pun. Tapi dalam video klip “VIP”, it was great! Dengan band yang mengiringi Iwan in that video clip, it was great. Walaupun takde ‘wow’ factor dalam video klip tu, tapi ia tetap boleh menarik perhatian penonton.

So, dah habis komen2 I pada persembahan finalist AF8. heheh… jadi pengkritik tak diundang jap… :) tp overall mmg puas hati dengan kosert final af8 terutama pemilihan lagu untuk para finalist. Harap2, semua lagu baru boleh menjadi hits kat corong2 radio terutama sekali lagu RSVP, Kenapa dan Ku ada Kamu…. Heheh… n harap bintang2 af 8 neh tak berhenti di sini. Teruskan usaha mereka sehingga mencipta nama yang diingati sampai bila2.

BAD HAIR DAY N BAD DAY AS WELL~

Today, 21 May 2010….

Actually, I tak baik lagi dari cirit birit sejak dua hari lepas. Tapi Alhamdulillah, dh okay sikit berbanding hari rabu hari tu. Hari rabu tu sampai terdemam2. N now, current problem pulak I tak boleh nak makan. Setiap kali I makan, I akan muntahkan balik apa I makan. Sampai satu tahap I rasa takut nak makan sebab tak nak keluarkan balik apa yang I dah makan. Perut lapar memang tahap tak hengat. Tapi tak boleh nak telan apa2 sebab memang akan keluar balik. Itu belum cerita cirit nya lagi. Entah nape. I pun tatau. Dlm berteka-teki macam ni, bila mama kata nak ajak g jumpa doctor, I tak nak pulak sebab I tot it will recover sooner or later… tp kalau kata berterusan jugak sakit ‘pelik’ neh, I akan g jmpa doc later.

Dlm keadaan sakit macam ni, I try jugak drive sampai shah alam tadi sebab ada member nak mintak teman I jumpa supervisor I regarding tajuk FYP I dia nak bawak untuk sambung Master. So, I tabahkan hati jugak nak drive sampai SA.

Nak dijadikan cerita, I plan nak gunting rambut lama dh. So, dh alang2 turun SA tu, I trus buat keputusan nak cut my hair today. Plan asal nak cut macam ala2 rambut Adira, AF8 tu. Tp, the designer kata rambut style macam tu tak boleh buat dry blow. Kena cuci, baru dia leh cut. But then, dia charge RM 38 for cuci rambut sahaja??? Oh, no. Tak sanggup aku. Mahal sgt. So, I decided to just layer cut my hair with fringe tepi. Apa yang pasti, nak rambut pendek takat bahu. Entah macam mana, dia boleh cut my hair atas sgt dari bahu menjadikan rambut I sgt pendek tahap tak hengat. Menyampah bila orang tak ikut apa yang kita nak. TENSION jek. Mula2 dh stat tak puas hati. Tapi nak buat macam mana, dia dh potong dh. Mmg tak suka rambut baru neh. :’(

Otw balik umah pulak, elok jek I drive macam biasa, tiba2 ada orang langgar kereta I. Macam babi!!! Dah tu tak nak ngaku pulak tu dia langgar. Dia tuduh I langgar dia. Kalau I langgar dia, macam mana kereta dia kat bahagian depan boleh kena n kereta I bahagian belakang yang scratch? I ke yang langgar??? Okay, kalau kat simpang kan, kita mesti give way to main road jalan dulu kan? Kalau free for both side, baru kita lalu kan??? Masalahnya, mamat cina neh aku tatau la pulak dah ada lesen berapa lama. I kat main road kot. He should always give way to me before he can proceed to keluar that simpang kan???? Elok masa I lalu, dia tekan minyak nak keluar jugak from that simpang. I dan2 tak boleh berhenti sebab ada kereta kat belakang. Dia boleh berhenti sebab dia kat simpang. Kenapa dia tak berhenti??? Dia keluar jugak simpang tu. Then, I park my car aside n keluar kereta. Dia maki hamun i.

CINA GILA : Hey, u tak nampak ke kereta I keluar simpang? Gila!

Me : Hello! I was on the straight road. U should stop at the junction. When it is clear baru u boleh keluar. N yet?

CINA GILA : Masalahnya, I keluar dulu dari U!

Me : Hey, kalau u keluar dulu dari I, takkan kereta u kena kat bahagian depan. I tak tengok lagi my car macam mana. Tapi I tahu I kena kat bahagian belakang. Takkan I yang langgar u.

CINA GILA : You bayar I la. Kereta I dh tanggal cat. (tapi aku tgk cat tu mcm dh tanggal lama jek. Entah ye entah tidak.)

Me : Y should I pay u! U yang the one langgar i.

CINA GILA : Okay, macam ni. I g hantar bengkel, bil nanti I hantar kat rumah u. Bagi u punyer address.

Me : Hey, kenapa pulak aku nak kena bayar bil kau. Kau langgar aku kot.

CINA GILA : Okay, let settle out this way. You give me 50 ringgit, then we considered everything settle.

Me : Im a student. Mana ada duit sekarang ni. Gila apa nak bayar kat ko. (time ni dh nk ckp jek, jumpa kat balai sebab I tau, evidence mmg buktikan I tak salah. Tp tak sempat ckp, dia dh nyampuk.)

CINA GILA : Okay lah, 40 ringgit la. I don’t think this is a big problem. I ketuk sikit jek. Dalam 40 should be okay. Consider student and student.

Me : What????? No-no! Im not going to pay any Sens to u. Im not the one that should be blame.

(pahtu mamat cina gila neh g tengok kereta I, n muka dia dh berubah.)

CINA GILA : Okay, macam ni la. Since kereta u pun scratch, let just settle la. Anggap jela tak de apa. Memang takde apapun. I fhm, I student jugak. Kita settle la.

Me : What? (ms ni mmg tak tgk g kereta I mcm mana?)

CINA GILA : Takpela, kereta I tu kira takde apalah. Sikit je.

Me : Huh?

CINA GILA : Okay, we settle k.

(Then, dia masuk kereta n wait for me to get into the car. I masuk kereta, masih tergamam tatau nak buat apa. Sampai terlupa nak ambik gambar nombor plate kereta dia. I drive away. Sengaja bawak slow2 sebab tengok mamat cina gila tu keep on following my car. I takut dia ikut I sampai rumah. Dh la perempuan. Kot2 dia nak mintak duit leh bagi, dia dtg nak buat benda bukan2? Nauzubillah.)

So then, he potong my car n drive macam palesit (macam lari pun ada). I was still shocked. By the time sampai rumah I check my car, n yes the back sit door behind the driver’s was badly scratch. Shit la. Patutla mamat tu menggeripai jek nak lari. Tak nak I tuntut bayaran rupanya. N I buat kesilapan sebab tak tangkap gambar kereta dia n nombor plate. My bad. I call mama, mama was shocked n pissed off. (time ni I sakit perut sgt2, apa mama bebel macam tak masuk sgt.) mana taknya, baru setahun lebih kereta tu, dh banyak calar balar bila I pakai. Mau tak mengamuk mama. Dia sendiri tak pernah buat kereta dia macam tu. Masa ni dh sedih n bad mood gila babas.

Then, I mandi semua. Bila lepas mandi, mama dah balik. Mana tanya macam2 pasal accident tu. I jawab apa yang boleh jek sebab still sakit perut. Lepas tu I pakai baju semua, I tgk diri kat cermin! N shit I hate my new hair cut!!! Seriously sgt pendek n burok!!!oh no… pahtu pujuk hati sendiri kata “takpe, rambut bila dh panjang okay la tu.” Padahal mood dh turn to negative. Rasa nak nangis pun ada… T_T tp boleh control lagi. I keluar bilik, my youngest sister gelak2. (dh terasa aura dia gelakkan rambut I, tp buat bodoh jek.) then, I masuk balik bilik.

Lepas tu perut I lapar, I need something to eat. Nak muntah kea pa ke, I still have to eat. So, I keluar dari bilik n search for something to eat. Then, tetiba :

Azrulnaim : Kak, burok nak rambut kitak! Jaik da jak.

Me : Apa?

Azrulnaim : Rambut baru kitak ya. Burok aie. Dh la pendek da jak. Kedak orang tua ada juak.

Me : owh… ( dlm hati, T_T sungguh jujur kata2 mu itu adikku… )

Then, I terus masuk dalam bilik n trying not to cry. N I dh stat tak nak tgk diri sendiri dalam cermin. Tak sanggup nak tengok monster in me.. huhu… n now my mood was down to negative negative negative. Seriously, mmg bad mood sangat2. Jangan kata, I potong rambut neh bawak benda tak baik pulak… Nauzubillah…. Takpela, take this from the bright side… semoga ada hikmah yang lebih baik untuk hari yang tak berapa nak baik hari ni… :’(

T_T in the inside….

:(

i went through kak aina's blog recently.... rasa nak nangis indah maca blog nya... n ms tok mek teringat ngan adik-adik mek... situasi mek duak kak aina ngan arwah syafiq ya sama jak cam situasi mek ngan adik mek, azrul. seriously, ada jak benda sik kenak mun mek duak kelakar. kira sik sebulu lar juak kadang2.... huhu... nya ada jak benda nak dilawan. tension juak nyawa kadang2... tp selalu ingatkan dirik, appreciate what i have before i lost it... jgn masa ya baruk nak regret all those things yg pernah dipolah dolok... tp susah la... dengan azrul yg keep on melawan, ada jak sik kenak, memberontak ya, nang susah.. mun mek duak kelaie, ma salu padah "gne kitak duak beradik tok. tok ms mak gk idup, kitak orang dah sik sebulu camtok. Mun ma dah sikda, sik tauk ma gne kitak duak tok. Betetak, berbunoh kali." bila mama padah camtok, start la masing2 diam. Ms ya mesti mek rasa nk nangis. terfikir balit. then, stat insaf. Tapi kakya, kelaie gik. Seriously, sik tauk gne nak berhadapan ngan azrul... maybe sebab jarak umur sgt jauh kali, 12 tahun bah... ya jadi camya... mun sik pun, sikap masing2 yang sik suka mengalah menyebabkan keadaan makin teruk... tp bila teringat kes arwah syafiq ya nang sendu jak rasa ati koh. tetiba terfikir, mun la kamek ilang azrul kinek tok, how can i continues my life without him, without forgiveness from him, without his laughter, without his nagging and etc... T_T seriously, i cannot live my life without him... kakak sayang kitak k o-ol.. even tho kakak salu bisin, ngerepak, kelaie ngan kitak, kakak mok kitak tauk, kakak sayang kitak... u r the most valuable n precious present i ever have for my 12th birthday, 12 years ago until now... n i love mummy, abah n nana as well.... forever... seriously... T_T n i hope this strong relationship n bond will last forever...